Hi all?!
Critical Mass, all the best with your invasion! You seem very stronge & grounded & your sense of humor will help you through it all, as well!
Tillie, i hope you get back to feeling good soon?! Catch up on much needed rest without feeling the need to accomplish anything.
Tatoulia, i hope you are feeling some comfort since your recent loss.
Ive been really wanting my place to be 'acceptable'to have people over this past few days. It is seeming more important to me, recently. Maybe just seeing it through their eyes....or thinking about seeing it through their eyes? Speaking of which, im gonna need reading glasses soon...this screen has gradually getten smaller...ha ha 😀

Thanks everyone for the support, it means so much. Tillie, glad you are feeling some relief. And everyone who is facing challenges which is all of us!

Planning all this stuff feels sort of like planning the Normandie Invasion only more complicated, LOL.

Good Morning Everybody 🙂

I am awake and out of bed.
That may be all I accomplish today ;P

TTYS 🙂

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
You take all the time you need (((HUGS)))
But thank you so much for poking your head in here every once in a while. 😉

Sending you my love and prayers CM. I would clean a path for you in a heartbeat if you were close by. I'd be respectful and loving towards your things and I'd make sure you were ready with clean sheets and nighties.

I only skimmed the posts because while reading I noted that Tillie was cheering you on. Let me tell you, please by those FLUSHABLE (make sure flushable) wipes for using immediately once the cleanse begins. Worth every penny.

Praying for you and thinking of you. CM I would move mountains to help you get ready. For now please know we are all looking out for you.

Forgive me everyone for not reading your posts. Soon I will feel like myself again.

Hi Anonymoniker 🙂
Slowly but surely I am getting better. 😉
Have fun beating drums.

Hi CriticalMass 🙂

It's alright to cry, freak out, whatever you need to do here.
Keep thinking how much the BIG surgery could help with all your troubles.
Make sure you have a clear path to and from your bed and bathroom and kitchen areas.
Lay in a supply of the proper foods you will need to eat afterwards. Make sure to have plenty of easy to fix healthy food.
Plan to rest and recuperate as long as the doctor tells you to, NO cheating.
Please try to rest up now as much as you can before the big day.
Make YOU, your health and peace of mind your highest priority.
Please keep us updated on how you are doing.
Everything else can wait until you are all better. 🙂
(((HUGS)))

Tillie, im so glad it sounds like youre feeling better! YEA!!! 😀
CriticalMass, you certainly do have some big things happening. When i am preparing for something im nervous about, i visualize it going smoothly, until that visualization becomes easy. That has always really helped me?!
Tonight is our womens drumming circle! Im excited to try some of the new beats ive learned this week!
~♡~Be Happy Homies!~♡~And Have Happy Homes!~♡~

Wow, everyone's dealing with a lot of stuff. I'll just pray for the entire lot of us, including myself, because I'm going through some stress anyhow. It may be less than some, more than others.

It's been a week since my CT scan and this week started off crazy - Monday trying to sew those pockets in those pants, frustrating because of not having a real sewing area where I live, and the pants themselves I wasn't sure which method to use to add pockets.

Then I got a little done with that, was feeling okay, did an art piece and felt really happy, then slumped again trying to decide what to have for supper. After supper I discovered a part broken off the TV and I just lost it. The stress of wondering about the surgery, a relative's cancer fight, and just "everything" underneath it all. I had a big fit and then felt horrible.

Fast forward to yesterday morning and my doctor appointment to find out the results. I am going to have to have "the BIG surgery" the first Friday in Oct. Will have to stay overnight 3-5 nights, though if I bounce which I usually do, he'll let me go as soon as possible. I was mentally blown away yesterday and still kind of brain foggy today.

So, all the cleaning and anticipation and supply getting, and the anxiety because I'll have to do (TMI warning, with apology in advance) the prep for bowels as a safety precaution since the surgery is in the abdomen. Ugh, ugh, ugh! My digestive system is touchy as it is, and I have been feeling decent lately, so it's really hard to think that I'm going to have to torture my own body with the nasty tasting stuff and its effects before the doctor even gets ahold of it, at which time I'll truly be a hurtin' cowpoke.

I am blessed with a really kind doctor though, and I'm trying to tell myself well, just think, this bigger surgery is a more permanent fix and I may never have to go through all the sickish feelings and pain once I'm healed up. If I'm truly lucky, it may even cure the tummy troubles I've had. It's just that right now I sort of feel like a scared baby and almost want to cry and scream, but I know nobody's gonna want to hear too much of that, so most of the time I'll have to put on my brave joking face and act like "Meh, no big deal."

I hope y'all don't mind me posting about this - it relates to clutter just in the sense of trying to deal with life when it whizzes by so fast and there's always something to deal with and while I'm dealing with the something the clutter is also needing to be dealt with. I have to make sure I can walk across the floor to my bed, etc. without tripping on stuff. So there's more need to deal with clutter, but so many brain cells are occupied with freaking out right now.

Happy Autumn! 😀

Good Morning Everyone 🙂

Hard to believe it's Autumn already.
Thank you Tatoulia and Anonymoniker (((hugs)))
Want to go to the grocery store and get something to eat but just not up to that yet.
Will just "make-Do" with what's here.
Got cold last night, need to get out another blanket.
Cats are screaming at me, want their breakfast
"NOW!!!" LOL 😀
Ok, OK I'll feed you "NOW!!!

TTYS ;D

....i just had a close encounter with my kitty & a nearby rattlesnake...fortunately, i was able to deter her stupid rattlesnake curiousity by throwing my wine at her! Thank God she ran...this time! Then i battled another big kitchen spider & won! YEA!!! This ominous day is almost over & feel a little more victorious than most years...
~☆♡☆~I hope you all feel the incredible Love that is around you, and that you can Heal from your illnesses & grief, soon!~☆♡☆~

Thank you, Tatoulia, and you were right, the kitty did show up! I am so relieved! It sounds like youve already gotten plenty done for today. Maybe just go ahead & treat yourself to a shower & get in bed early?
Tillie, sending healing hugs your way... ~♡~

Tillie I am sending warm thoughts your way and wish I could help you. Please feel better and do not overdo.

Anony sad to hear about list cat--hopefully you'll have been reunited byvthe time you read this.

Five minute miracle
Dusted bedroom including lampshades.

I need to vacuum bedroom but cat is sleeping on thd blanket I should've washed in May but just washed today. It doesn't fit in my apt sized washer so I kept putting it off.

Did scads of laundry today. Am running dishwasher. Feel like showering and calling it a night. Grieving. Want to shower and climb into bed.

Dear Tillie rest as much as you need and drink plenty of fluids.

Hi everyone?!
Tillie, im sorry to hear you arent feeling well. I hope you feel better soon? ~♡~
....one of my cats is missing....this is also a traumatic anniversary for me...and a hard sun degree, too...every year something bad happens to me on this day....

Good Morning Everyone 🙂

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
(((HUGS)))

Hi Anonymoniker 🙂

Hi Joan 🙂

Sorry for my absence but I have been very ill.
Feeling a bit better today 🙂
House is now in shambles but I can't worry about that just yet.
At least I managed to keep the cats fed & watered and litter boxes scooped for them.

Talk to you soon 🙂

Tatoulia, i will send you prayers! I hope you feel better soon! ~♡~♡~♡~

Tatoulia, i will send you prayers! I hope you feel better soon! ~♡~♡~♡~

I can't post right now but thinking of you. I need to work through my grief.

I seem to need to relearn the same lessons, over & over...if i dont have a specific plan/list for the next day before i go to sleep, i will sleep late & accomplish nothing.
Also, y'all's 5 & 10 minute miracle thing is truly an amazing!

YES! And there is more crime, more accidents, more births & deaths during full moons. I once wouldnt take a train reservation offered by my travel agent years ago cuz it was on a full moon. She laughed and shook her head. That train derailed! ....not to sound paranoid, but....

Anony, I have studied astrology for years. The influence of the planets on our reality is absolutely no joke.

Do you know where the term "lunacy" comes from? Hospital ERs overbooked with mental patients at the time of the full moon. The phases of the moon affect the tides, as well as all the H2O in our bodies.

Hello, Happy Hoarder Homies!
I ended up having a good day yesterday, breaking through some stuckness! I got my bedroom cleaned with new sheets put on & only 2 small stacks of notebboks & books, which i do use! It feels & looks wonderful! I started by dance/jogging on my path with music, figuring it would get me energized & it did!
I also got out my timer for my phone/internet...not one of those silent digital type ones, but one that ticks like a bomb with a loud bell!!! HA HA Its ticking right now and it definitely puts out a message as im typing! ha ha
I literally had a 'brush' with another big spider...ooops? Spider story warning! But i victoriously killed it! They can NOT share my living space! That is an accepted law in nature....uh-oh...the bell went off...my time is up!!!
~☆~Happy House Improvements to you all!!!~☆~

.....well, i know its considered a joke when astrologers blame planets, but there are like 6 retrograde planets right now, including Mercury, so for now, im chalking up my procrastination & severe stuckness on that....ha ha.....(sigh)

Tillie, your fresh new front door sounds really nice! Ive found new color makes all the difference in shifting mood & presence!!!
Ive tried those electric zappers, but on bigger bugs, like these spiders, it takes a few zaps to kill them, and often they crawl down the handle first!
Tatoulia, please know you are doing everything right?! There is not anything else you can do, but what you have done. Youve been a perfect sister for your brother. I hope you can realize that.
......i am feeling like i just need to hire some help. Im not even getting my maintenance housework done anymore, much less projects completed....

Good Morning Everybody 🙂

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
So very sorry that your brother is having his crisis right at this time when you are grieving.
(((HUGS)))
Please don't push yourself, eat properly, rest when you can.
All the tasks can wait.
Take care (((HUGS)))

Hi CriticalMass 🙂
Yes, that would be nauseating having to constantly smell artificial peanut butter 🙂

Hi Anonymoniker 🙂
Sorry that I have no suggestions for you to try for getting on this website. 🙁
If it were a computer I would have several for you to try.
I have an electric fly swatter.
They don't cost much at Harbor Freight.
I use mine to ZAP all sorts of creepy crawlies and flying monsters.

Yesterday he came home with another load of thrift shop treasures.
He was very proud of the telescope he just bought.
I asked him what was wrong with the THREE he already owns?
He said nothing is wrong with them but he would be a fool not to buy this one because it was only five dollars.
It now resides out in the dirt of the carport.

Anyways...
I started painting the front door yesterday.
I will apply another coat soon as I am dressed today.
For over 20 years it has been deep dark red but I found a can of acceptable paint in his hoard to use.
It's deep dark plum.
Change is good, change keeps things fresh and new. 🙂

TTYS 🙂

Thank you for your loving support. I really need it and I feel very comforted.

Was too tired to do anything last night--I did go for a walk despite being dark out and picked up some groceries for mom. When I came home I left the dishes where they were and I didn't change my sheets. Working on all of that now before I go to clear out the car and consolidate Christmas stuff. Visiting hours for friend's son is this afternoon. My dress is clean and ready to go.

I did read your posts and I feel for you all with your struggles. My mind is too jumbled right now other than to say, be kind to yourself today.

Tatoulia, glad you got your items from your brother. That has to be so hard knowing there's just not a lot you can do to change his condition. Severe mental illness can tear families and relationships apart. I'll keep you and him in my prayers.

Anony, I know that sapped-out feeling so well. The motivation is there, buried under the demotivation. I want to want to do stuff but it's hard to initiate a task, or continue it, or do that final wrap up. Depending on what task and what stage I'm at. I do believe though that as clarity begins to return it will improve for all of us.

Spiders can wear you down, too, when they come just one after another! I had a spider-prone apartment for 17 years (though I think my efforts reduced the population some). You get in the habit of looking all around, flinching at any little dark spot you see - it's a tense way to live.

Another thing I just remembered was that in that apartment, sticky traps proved quite helpful. They make some for spiders but sometimes they're hard to find and more expensive than the ones for mice. The mice ones work just as well for spiders. I recommend against the peanut butter scented ones, though, because there's something kind of nauseating about smelling fake peanut butter smell all the time. Good luck!

I dont know why, but it has been very hard to get on this site today, especially this thread?! It took me almost an hour.
I was just about to go to sleep...oh wait Warning: scary spider story! ...ok, i went to get some water before going to sleep & a huge spider crawled into the freezer when i opened the door for ice! I chased it & finally got it, or it couldve even been a different one?!! Im sooo tired of being terrorized by spiders in my house...its for a good chunk of the year...it makes me afraid to even get anything in the way of cleaning done this time of year...i guess if i did get it cleared out & cleaned up, thered be less spiders...maybe ill focus on that as a solution...im just tired of being intimidated like this in my own house....i guess maybe im being kind of whiny...ok, good night all! ~☆♡☆~

Tatoulia, im so sorry. There is only but so much that you can do & it seems you have already reached that point. You are a very loving sister!

Tatoulia, im so sorry. There is only but so much that you can do & it seems you have already reached that point. You are a very loving sister!