Porter, I hope for you both.

But I don't know. You would have lost me. It sounds like you didn't really listen to her, you forced her. And that isn't a good basis for a relationship. But maybe you really convinced her and she just trusts you, i can't tell from here.

I do know that all of her stuff is now in a storage area and she has new stuff she didn't choose.

I hope that you understand and communicate that she has the right to return the new stuff if it isn't what she wants.

Also, the storage unit needs to be in her name, and you need to give her enough money to pay to have all the stuff moved back professionally. Because right now you have her stuff hostage. If things don't work out between you, how does she get it back?

Now with hoarding out, I can take the rest as it comes slow or not slow.

I just back home.
I was at Marcies all day.
She made the same statements , that I'm taking over and it too much too soon.
I was ready for what I was going to say.

In my heart I know I love this woman in way that's not just a mere spark of passion , but like someone I would die for iif it was nessasary . I see her. She fills my senses in a way that no one else does.

I took a deep breath and started to speak , and my eyes teared up.

I said .
I know I already love you, but I will pull away if you continue your life as a hoarder.
I'm with you all the way on this !
I'm asking for just the one day to let me into your life.
I won't throw anything away, not one thing! I just want to reorganize it . I want to know that you trust me!

She didn't say anything for about ten seconds .
I started speaking again.
I said.
Think of me like the trading spaces guy Ty Pennington . Allow me to give your space a make over , for just this one day.

Marcie said ok.
I asked if she could spend the day at her sisters , because I would be like moth to her.and I can make a difference if I'm not distracted.
She agreed. I could hear in her voice she was crying too.

I sent out a call for help on my family only Facebook .
Only men showed up. I pleaded fir strong guys hungry fir beer and chilli.

We removed everything lime a moving company .
Gave my brother my credit card , and sent him to pick up a new bed , couch and dinning table .
I sent his wife with him to shop for lamps and antiques .
About five o'clock I talked to Marcie again
She asked to come see, but I said come at 11oclock.
With pizza. She agreed.
I left the kitchen and bathrooms the way they are.
The rest of the house is clear of every last thing,
Everythings in storage in easy access totes , all photographed in labeled order. And the storage bin is large with enough Space to sort out everything.

I called at ten o'clock and said " its done " Im ready for you.

She came promptly at 11pm with pizza.
She was stunned , not happy. But not mad.
Lisa my sister in law knocked on the door. With some more antiques from her house . It was a good exchange between them.
After Lisa left , we just hugged alot as she walked from room to room . At 1am I left as I know Ive went farther than she expected. I know she needs time to process it.

My experience with my sherry my deceasesed wife showed me that trauma of having someone come into your Soave and remove everything was very unsettling , but with sherry it took more than a month. And we lived through that trama day after day.
With Marcie I decided I was not going to go this a third time.
It's all done except retrieving the sentimental items and throwing out 70% of what's in that storage.

I'm very tired , my hope s that tomorrow when we meet at church that we just hold hands , and that she trusts me.
Friends
I honestly think I couldn't put her out of my life.
But I just can't go through another relationship like i had with sherry.
I'm 49 , I know what it's like to live a life just tolerating the hoarding . I couldn't respect Marcie in the long run , if she wouldn't let me do what's in my heart.

What matters now is how she feels about it.

SubC, I will be there for you, dear heart.

So glad things are going well for everyone.

Anony, I am super glad that you will get at least part of your workshop.

Tatoulia, happy news about your family. And good job purging the lamp!

Tillie, I love reading about your spring garden.

I think it is finally spring here. I got outside for almost six hours and started clearing weeds and working on reclaiming my garden from the ravages of neglect. It started raining so I had to come in, but the fire is going and the dishwasher and washing machine are running. I am eating, and then I will cook some ice cream to go in the ice cream maker tomorrow.

I am solar powered. I know that, but I somehow forget it when it is dark and cold and I am depressed and exhausted. Or, I remember it, but I forget what it really means. Will you remind me? When I come here in February and I say I have accomplished nothing and I am tired and discouraged? Somebody tell me it's ok, and this is just the downtime when I am resting because soon It will be spring, and then summer, and I will be up late at night folding laundry because I have had so much sun I can't sleep, but worked so hard I can barely move.

Anony congratulations on the new truck! SubC I'm excited about your son's new home. Sounds like Spring has Sprung Tillie.

So much to catch up on--great to read so many posts! I know I've forgotten some of it already and I'm leaving people out--nit intentional!

My sister came into town today and it went well. I got together with brother early then went to mom's to see sister. I made her an easter basket and she had done the same for me! And mom! I was really touched. She also had once admired one of my lamps so I brought it to her. Goodbye, lamp!

I'm meeting BF for a chowder in a few minutes.

Thinking of you all and hoping to get some work done today.

Oh! Even though still cool here I slept with window open last night--just one. So cool and fresh.

Good Afternoon Everybody 🙂

Hi Anonymoniker 🙂
Hoping you are having a wonderful time at that workshop! 😀

Been busy doing stuff all morning.
Tired out now, taking a break.
It's only 1:20pm right now, had lunch.
Another beautiful day today but with a bit more cloud cover & breezier than yesterday.
Got two loads of laundry done.
Been switching out Winter stuff for Spring/Summer stuff slowly but surely.
Still have to find the magical time when there aren't any cats in the cat beds so I can wash those things.
Took the winterizing plastic off the dining room window. So nice now to be able to open that window again.
The tiny Grape Hyacinth is blooming. 😉

~♡~Coffee clinks & love to all!~♡~
Tillie, YEA, for going barefoot!!!
SubC, YEA, for stuff going to your son's new house!
Porter, WOW!!! Congrats on new love, but Please, SLOW DOWN?! Part of me fantasizes about meeting a guy that will save me, but id freak if he took over! I would!! Even as helpful as you are being, please dont push ! Remember it is her issue, be very gentle. Ok? 😀 ~♡~
I realized yesterday my new truck is clean & simple & i dont want to trash it out like my car. Also, i think part of why i didnt want a full sized truck is cuz i think i associate that with hoarding, cuz in my serial shopping days, id come home with a packed full truck & get home & want to vomit, like a bulimic!
Im going to the rescheduled part of the earthbag workshop today, which then ill at least get to see the structure, especially the window arches, before we plaster over the earthbags! And i wont get stuck in the sand driving to her place, like i did last time in my car!
~☆~Happy Day to you all!~☆~

Good Afternoon Peoples 😀
Weak lemonade "Clink!"

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
WTG! for being on time all week!
Such a busy girl you are. 😉

Hi Anonymoniker 🙂
YOU GOT A "NEW" TRUCK!!!!! WOOHOO!!!
Have a wonderful time on your mini vacation, enjoy every minute of it. 😀

Hi CriticalMass 🙂
We all have our fingers crossed that very soon you will have a new or improved vehicle too. (((HUGS)))

Hi Porter 🙂
So wonderful that you found someone special.
Take your time, she needs time to adjust to any new changes you are making.
Slow, slow, slow, little by little.
Moving too fast is painful for her.
I think this could really work out for the both of you. (((HUGS)))

Hi Subclinical 🙂
WONDERFUL that your Son bought a house!
Yes! pack that car full of stuff for him! ;D

Had a great day today.
Two loads of laundry got done.
Then I straightened & organized the pump house where I keep yard/garden stuff stored.
Got out the 3 hoses and have them unrolled, stretched out straight in the sunshine to get the curl out of them.
Unwrapped the outdoor faucet since it won't get down too cold again.
Could smell the hyacinth as I worked out there.
Now I need to try to get Steven to attach the hose to the faucet for me because I do not have enough strength in my hands to get it on tight.
Sprinkled around some plant food pellets for some flowering type plants.
Took inventory of just what I have on hand to use in the yard this Spring. Should be enough. 🙂
Also, I walked for the first time since last Autumn in the yard BAREFOOT!

Wow porter, that is amazing that you have found each other! I am really happy for you! I am happy for her, but two weeks is really fast!

Maybe slow down a little, spend more time at your house? Don't stop keeping it up?

Be careful to talk with her before involving your friends.

You want this to be sustainable for both of you.

Anony, great news on the truck! CM, you are next! I think you both have great Easter plans.

Yay for clean teeth and getting to work!

I was amazing at work this week. But I barely made it through today.

My son bought a house. He invited us to come visit in May - carload of stuff going west!

Hi everyone.
Guess what?
I found a girlfriend my age.
We really hit it off.

But when I went to her house , she's a hoarder. Ugh huh!

I offered to help and she was so embarrassed she didn't talk to me for 6 days days. I was sad not hearing from her. I just can't stop thinking about her .
So I just went over there and kept knocking on the door until she answered . I simply just asked her to keep going out with me.
We went to a waffle house. She's been ti my house many times and I explained that I've lived as hoarder for many years with my former wife. But now I maintain it on my own and I'm nearly obsessed with keeping it clear and organized.

I didn't push to go to her house again . For a week she just came to my house , last Sunday I told I wanted her to trust me coming into her house. . She agreed , when I got I to her room I nearly welled with tears. As I was flooded with memories of how my Wife lived in her unhealthy room.

I went straight into the the bathroom and started cleaning . Marcie kept asking me to stop , but when unlocked the door.
I smiled real big at her with the biggest fake smile I could keep straight and invited her to a bath with me. I gave her time to look at what I had done as removed the bags. I had lit some vanilla candles . It wasn't to bad , but it was my move . I think I love this woman . Not her hoarding !

Later when I at my house alone I began to comp template what's happening. I'm falling in love. I'm not accepting her as a hoarder.
I went back on this last Wednesday and cleared her kitchen , she was ok with me helping her , because the bathroom was such a good experience as I regained her living space without saying word. At least what it seems lime.

So I purchased a small storage very near her house , she let me in. I asked her to leave. I explained I was not going through out anything. Not one thing. But was going to take the entire kitchen to storage and sort it out there , meanwhile her and I can beautify her kitchen. I asked if she buy new kitchen towels drapes and matching accessories like art candles , place mats . While she was out I got my brothers van , got my huge rolling conai ers and just scooped out the entirety of all things in the kitchen. There was alot of disgusting things I gagged and wretched on. But I just kept going.

In two hours it was all in the van , I left for the storage, I got a call from her , she was weepy about clearing her kitchen.
I asked her if I could make dinner as she put out the decor.
I made steaks with yams and green peas . Blueberry dessert.

The room smelled like bleach, After dinner we were intamate in the shower again. We just keep hugging eachother alot.
Sorry if it's too much Info tmi.

Today I asked if I could bring back the kitchen appliances and pans , and help her with either her bedroom or living room. She agreed to let me try in bedroom, she got upset .
Very upset. So I left . Leaving a text message that I'm not giving up just taking a break.
I'm about to go back over , and start on her living room .
It's really not that bad in the living room. And I did manage to trash bag 99% of her trash. I think as long as I keep on reclaiming room by room . I will be done in 2weeks if she let's me. But Im ready to give her space at a moments notice.
Friends it's like dejavue . I know she feels hopeless about her hoarding, and i feel so empowered . I can take hours not weeks. So it's like a sudden change , but also lime ripping off a bandaid.

I think I'll approach it going forward that won't do anything after sundown. So that I can seperate the hoarding focus and relaxation time. And not spending everyday at her house .

I've talked to my brother about her hoarding. He said run Porter. But I assured him I'm so in love with her I just can't do that!
I've secretly set a group of people , that help my wife and I last year, and have suggested another chili party. I've got 6peope willing to help. And two more people with vans , that are willing to only load and unload any containers.

I'm hoping she agrees to this. Because it can be done in a day, and I can reorganize her things in the storage in just one more day, and start to bring things back 1 day per room.

By next week. Her whole will have been sorted and cleaned.

I know I seem obssed with reclaiming her living space.
But I really want to get back to what it was like at my house where there was no obvious hoarding in the living space .
I think , I can't get past her hoarding, I need to see she's willing to let me have control over the living space as far as clutter is concerenerd .
I know I love her, at least unable to think of anyone else,
But to be honest I can't live with active hoarding in the living space again.
I need to just go slow , but I just can't seem to pull back .

I mean there's people you go on a dates with and then there's someone you feel like wanting to be with all the time. Super attracted can't get enough with, same Intrests and music and social events. A match, in everything but be hoarding. I try to explain that I'm hoarder too, but I'm just organized right now, she says I'm not a hoarder.

.

I'm now down 2 215lbs
My stamina at the gyms stronger than I can ever remember.
And I know what energy drinks to use on days when I'm not motivatied. So I'm either with Marcie or the gym.

I'm noticing I'm not at my house as much , not keeping it spotless, but think as soon as i stop my work at marcies I will return to keeping up on my house.I'm not concerned just aware.
I feel that way .

~♡~Love & coffee clinks to all!~♡~
CM, im so glad youre going to avoid blowing up & that the bunnies are becoming friends! 😀
Tillie, that is great that your dental appointment went well & its over & that youre ok with the new dentist! How fun to have a new nightgown & sandals! 😀
Tatoulia, all the best to you in your new leaf turning! 😀
I found a truck yesterday & it is perfect for me & i love it!!! ~YEA!!!~ And my Mom donated towards it & my friend helped me sooo much more by just going with me & knowing all he knows! ....a funny thing was after we got back, since i let him in my house, he remembers my place being so interesting with my collages everywhere & when i was complaining about it, he told me how neat it really was back then....i really wasnt sure?!
I have a neat & unusual plan for Easter. Since i dont have TV, im gonna get a cheap motel room & watch Jesus Christ Superstar, while eating junk food from the truck stop! Im gonna also do a baking soda & epsoms salt soak in the bathtub while i have the chance! The original Jesus Christ Superstar movie made an enormous impact on me as a young teen & Alice Cooper is playing King Herod!!! Im so excited!!! ~☆♡☆~

Quick shout out! To everyone including you, Joan.

Have been at work T, W & Th and again tmr plus I've had something T & W nights. I came home tonight and fell asleep (after washing face and putting pjs on). That felt really good. I've been on time for work each day this week. I'm trying to turn over a new leaf.

I will talk to you all tmr.

Hello Everybody 🙂
Weak lemonade "Clink!"

Hi Anonymoniker 🙂
Keep up the positive astronomical outlook!
Another Blue Moon happening too.
So many lately. ;D
Great that you have your friend to help you vehicle shop, not only mechanically but also with dealing with the selling people.

Hi Subclinical 🙂
FAR OUT!!! that you have your Grandfather's cuckoo clock and it is now blessing your home with the hourly cuckoos! 😀
I have very fond memories of my Grandfather telling me all about the black forest where his cuckoo clocks came from.

Hi CriticalMass 🙂
So sweet you are letting Mr. Bunny take his time adjusting.
Since Marty died last month Scooter has been trying to spend more time with Twinkles.
Twinkles and Marty were Best Friends Forever.

Went to my dental appointment this morning.
Xrays, check up and cleaning.
NO cavities! 😀
But my old dentist had retired. 🙁
The other dentist seems nice enough, not spooky but very young.
Afterward I stopped by the thrift shops.
Bought a pretty new summertime nightgown, a pair of sandals that have Velcro straps, a large lemon scented candle and a fabric remnant that I think will make lovely carpet in the dollhouse parlor.
Now that I have no more pressing appointments I will be able to spend time getting dirty doing stuff outside.
And I think the weather will be agreeable for doing lots of laundry as I swap out Winter drapes & bedding & etc. for lighter weight stuff. 🙂

Hi again - Anony, so right on the gasoline thing. If my mechanic is scared to start it, it gets towed, no ifs, ands, or buts!

We've had a few happenings yesterday and in the night that may call for tweaks in plans. My roommate had a tooth out yesterday, and my bug or allergy thing hasn't peaked apparently. My nose is running more and I'm sneezing. Her allergies were bothering her in the night too. I could hear because I was already awake with mine and with sciatica - been too sedentary, need to walk ASAP.

So I will probably celebrate Holy Thursday here at home. I have my book with the Bible readings and it may also be on TV. Might be I'll feel better and go tomorrow night for Good Friday. However it goes I want to get well in time for Easter. And the week after I can deal with the van thing with open ended time. Payday is Tuesday, must find out what I still owe on previous repairs and what I will owe for the gasoline lines. I have a note jotted down somewhere.

Another thing I want to work on, something that will take my mind off these tedious vehicle issues, is bonding my bunnies. The new girl and my boy who lost his lady I think are starting to warm up to one another, so now we just need to get it to where they are friends and can play together. I've taken it slowly out of respect for the bunny girl who died and wanting to allow the boy to take time to be ready to have a new friend.

~♡~Good Morning & coffee clinks to all!~♡~
I feel MUCH better than i did, physically, emotionally & spiritually!!! I think my introspection of difficult patterns shifted in looking at the astroid Chiron & its presence in the solar power problems years ago & i feel its in my ability to influence things at my place, more than i did last week! I have prayed & looked inside & i feel a Lightness now!!! 😀 ~♡~
CM, i am really concerned about your van leaking gas! I dont think risking blowing up is worth it?!
It sounds like for now just celebrating these Holidays would be best?!
My friend who inherited & offered to help me buy a truck is taking me to look at trucks for sale cuz hes good at knowing about that & i feel much more confortable about him helping me with that instead of just giving me money! YEA!!!
Mar, all the best to you with your meeting & all you are doing!
~♡~♡~☆♡☆~♡~♡~

Hi all!

Mar, how did your conversation go?

Good job on cleaning everyone.

CM, I definitely think you should jus5 focus on Easter. You need to feed your soul.

I have a big joy to share tonight. When my grandparents died, I inherited their cuckoo clock. I remember my grandfather holding me up to see the cuckoo pop out when I was little, but the clock has been broken for years. I hung it in the corner of the old living room just to have it around to look at, but it was dark and crowded back there.

Dh found an old fashioned clock repair shop and had it fixed for me, and it is now hanging on the bright, well lit wall in the new addition. ticking happily. It is the only thing hanging on that wall.

Hi CriticalMass 🙂
YES!
Please just stop now and focus on all the Easter celebrations.
I believe this would do a whole world of good for you mentally, spiritually and physically.
And true, the van issues will still be there afterward but you will be in a better place to deal with those frustrations.
(((HUGS)))

Beautiful day here today.
Cats all insisted on going outside this morning so we went out for a little while.
Didn't take long before they all came back inside to use the litter box and take naps.
Have the windows open and am enjoying the fresh air until the breeze blows in something that makes me sneeze and cough. ;P
Looking forward to getting outside this weekend and getting the garden hoses all hooked up and other Springtime tasks. 😀

Thanks Tillie. And hi to everybody. Somebody must've prayed for me. I prayed for me too. The really bad funk of yesterday is lifting. I called my friend who goes to my clutter club and we have a few ideas.

The weather here has been dry for months but now spring rains come about every other day or two. We need the moisture desperately but it throws a spanner in the works for me with the van situation. You see, I have several large crates of books and some other items in the van. I want to clean out the van before it goes to the mechanic's again and in case I sell it. Plans keep changing. Oh, and, it'll need to be towed again because there's gasoline on the manifold and it's unsafe to start. But I can get that done at no cost by my insurance company's roadside assistance. I checked.

I really wish now that I hadn't procrastinated last fall on getting the new storage unit organized and ready to receive that last batch of books. But I was thinking I'd have plenty of time, and I wanted to push to finish that quilt I was making for church.

So here I am with the van a mess and trying to decide what to do with it and those books and things still in it. And now push comes to shove. But as I said, today I felt a little better - I've had a cough and maybe it was a bug, and it's starting to go away so I have more energy. I'm talking to friends about maybe helping me with their cars to take the stuff to storage. And put in a call to the mechanic about towing the van to him after that.

This weekend is the Easter Triduum for Catholics - Holy Thursday Mass, Good Friday, Holy Saturday - and then of course Easter Sunday itself. For years it has been such a great spiritual time of meaning for me and I hope I can at least get to some of the special extra liturgies.

The van problems have taken so much out of me already and I'd envisioned them being long resolved before now. So I'm thinking that since Easter's so close I should just focus on it (I can get rides to church) and soak up the strength and positive significance of these celebrations and the van and all its issues will still be there afterward!

Good Morning Everybody 🙂
"Clink!"

Hi CriticalMass 🙂
Very happy you posted. 😀
My wish for you is that some sweet little old lady who has a good car with low mileage that she only uses to drive to church on Sundays decides to sell you her car at a price you can afford. (((hugs)))

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
WTG! for open drapes! ;D
It's priorities.
We all have our own personal priorities.
Having clean sheets and making your bed were your priorities so you took care of that.
The other stuff strewn about the room were not top priority and were put on the back burner.
For me, dust is not a priority.
Mainly because I live in the desert with unpaved dirt roads.
I dusted last Monday and already the place has a layer of dust on everything, but that doesn't bother me anymore.
I wait until it reaches "critical mass" before I get out the dust rag.

When we switched from soap to using body wash in the shower I noticed that the bathtub didn't need scrubbing as often as before.
The soap left a scum in the tub but the body wash always rinses down clean.
Makes tidying up the bathroom quicker when I only need to focus on the sink vanity and toilet & sweep.

Today I will get ready mentally for the dental appointment tomorrow morning.
To help me cope, yesterday afternoon I made an angel food cake.
That will be my reward for going. ;D

Not much to say. The van situation drags on and I'm slowly going mad. Looking at what I might be able to afford and seeing how high mileage those are, plus more complications, make me wonder if I should just fix the old van "one last time" to get by. Yet even that is ridiculously fraught with uncertainties including WHEN it could be done.

It's good to know our cats are spoiled. It feels like it's the right order.

I am looking forward to getting bathroom clean and then re-learning maintenance. I was pretty excited that I did sink vanity and toilet the week after I'd last done them. Need to put tub on every other week but let's not get too far ahead here!

It was nice coming home tonight and having to close the bedroom drapes to change my clothes. And I thought about how I went through a period where I couldn't have my drapes open due to so much stuff strewn about my bedroom. I don't know why I let it get like that. I really don't. I always changed my sheets weekly and I made my bed everyday but there was stuff everywhere. So odd.

Good Morning Everybody 🙂
"Clink!"

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
Thank you 😀
YEA! Way To Go!!!
For cleaning that bathroom! 😀
Good plan donating one of the blankets since Kitty doesn't care for them.
The blankets my cats always like the best are wool Pendletons, but any fine woolen blanket/shirt/coat will do.
Spoiled rotten little boogers.
Once you get the bathroom all cleaned it will be so easy to keep it clean with only a few minutes of work, as needed.

Have a load in the washing machine soaking as I write this post.
Moving rather slowly this morning. Still trying to shake off the ever lasting aftereffects of that %#*@ flu I had last month that is now combined with my allergies.
This Thursday I have a dental appointment for teeth cleaning. 🙁
Oh Well...
The Hygienist is humane and will allow me to breathe every once in a while. ;P

I washed some cat blankets yesterday. Tillie. One I'm going to donate. I bought them new this season-Martha Stewart twin size--and she doesn't love them. She barely sits on them and I washed them twice yesterday, just so I could donate one of them.

I cleaned bathroom sink, toilet and vanity last night. I swept bathroom (preliminarily--needs more work) and I swept the hallway.

Oh for freshly hung laundry Tillie. WTG for doing all your chores yesterday!

Hello Everybody 🙂

YEA! WAY TO GO!!! WOOHOO!
Loved catching up with all your goings-Ons! ;D

Well, I did it.
Did everything I said I would do today.
So now this blasted house is clean, again.
Looks like tomorrow I can hang out laundry, need to see what I should wash, like cat stuff maybe?
Hard to wash some of their bedding when they are always in the beds.
It's almost 8:30pm now, I am showered and ready to sleep.
Good Night 🙂

Sending you prayers. Mar. Anony I am so happy your mother is supporting and comforting you. SubC you are good to keep track of the inbound items.

Forgive me, I forgot to call Cory and so we are still stuck with the site being difficult. I am at office rest of week--not my choice--cannot remember last time I was in four days. Not looking forward to it.

With the site not being mobile friendly it's a little hard for me to write and read but please know I am thinking of you all. I did a lot of laundry today and it's folded and away. Kitty has brand new box and old one is in garbage bin. I've seen mom and now will do a bit of sweeping.

Love you Tillie--hope you are well. Bright sunny & bitterly cold here.

Hello everyone!

Check in.

Saturday I washed clothes. Yesterday nothing done. Today checked some papers, several to the box, several waiting for deciding, 4 pieces of paper and 2 bottles for recycling. Also I found a thing I was searching for since December!

I have to prepare an important conversation for tomorrow. Later, it will be more complicated to do it. Also I get nervous when I have to talk to someone. Please pray for me.

My dad will arrive here on these days, I'd like he see some progress made, but it isn't noticeable yet 🙁

(((HUGS)))

Clink!

I went shopping.

Well, let's see, I started the day at the food bank, where I only picked up one box of bread, including bread and rolls for us this week because we had so much we pulled everything with a sell by before March 24! So that was ok. I also picked up a huge shopping bag of recycling

Then I went to class by way of shopping - I bought cinnamon and cardamom powder (in non- recyclable plastic bags, ug!) at the spice shop where they give out free stuff. My free stuff was pizza spice and cayenne pepper, which I will use, in little glass jars, which I will save, but then when I got home I realized I also got a heart pin encouraging me to embrace hope. But maybe I need that. They have paper bags, so I accepted one.

Then I slipped off the rails a little - there was a sidewalk sale at the thrift shop across the street and I bought two new blouses (one with tags) a long sleeved sweater and a short sleeved sweater ($4.28) refused a bag.

Went to class. Did not buy anything (except a booth space for an upcoming sale - did it last year too, that's sort of work) while I was in class my Dd stopped by and returned my Tupperware by putting it in my car. She also returned two baby gates covered with dog hair that I thought I gave her, not loaned her. Clearly I need to start locking my car.

Borrowed a project example from a fellow student and brought home a bunch of newsprint patterns for work in progress.

Six bags of groceries (all food)

Bought 5 table knives at goodwill because dh keeps taking my knives to work and doesn't always return them. No bag.

At this point my car looks like I am living in it. Besides all the "shopping" it has a towel, my tools for class, a large plastic garbage bag in case I needed to wrap classwork, four small drywall boards (also "in case" for class) my swim bag just in case I get time to swim, my travel mug, a bottle of hand lotion, a brush, hair clips, and a bag of snacks.

~♡~Good morning, coffee clinks & chocolate coffee, too!!!~♡~
Tillie, thank you! Youre right that i need to practice some safety with all this yuckiness. Im thinking of doing a combo of suggestions, by using a peroxide spray bottle before dusting? And i should probably wear a mask, too. I hear you about small spaces being so much easier to clean. Its true! Ive always lived in tiny spaces & this place is huge compared to anywhere else ive lived & im sure that is part of my overwhelmedness.
One thing that has been really nice is that my Mom has been emailing me lately & being really supportive. The comfort that brings me, even at my age, is indescribable.
As soon as im well enough, im going to just clear, clean & color some more outside. That simple theme seems to be a good solid one! I want to use my ozonator inside for a few hours at a time, now that its nice enough outside to lock the cats & i outside for part of the day. That will help with mold & certain toxins. Ive been doing walks where i envision each area being beautiful & filled with color, etc...its nice! ~☆♡☆~Love to you all!~☆♡☆~

Good Morning Everybody 🙂
"Clink!"

Hi Anonymoniker 🙂
Do whatever you need to do to help change your outlook. (((HUGS)))

Still really cold but the sky is clear blue.
No plans to go outside today.
Today my plan is to clean up this dusty grubby house.
I'll start with the bathroom then sweep/wash floors & vacuum carpet.
I'll get fresh clean wash water & rag and go around and wash off/wipe all door knobs, light switches and everywhere else that could use a little cleaning.
Then I will start on getting out all the dust that has settled on everything.
I really hate housework but I hate this dirty house even more.
Will be so happy when I am done because then I can do something I enjoy doing.
Today I am grateful that this house is so tiny. ;D
Living in a tiny house everything gets dirty, cluttered, dusty & grimy faster than in a large house but it can all be cleaned & tidied up in just a few hours.