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What are you doing today?
Tillie
Posted: 17 August 2012 - 10:50 PM
 

Today my To-Do list included
water the garden and trees
clean the litter boxes
make a grocery list
clean kitchen
work on quilt

What is on your list? 😀

 

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Barb
Posted: 06 August 2013 - 11:58 AM
 

Thank you all for the birthday wishes.
Yesterday was a very productive day. I took Jazz for her rabies shot, dropped off the school supplies at The Salvation Army, got caught up on dishes, did one load of laundry (washed, dried and put away) and sorted another ready to do today, cleaned out the cat box, and took one bag of garbage outside. Tanner mowed and trimmed and cut down some vines and weeds. Because he did the yardwork, I could concentrate on the inside. I went out for dinner to celebrate my birthday.
Today I am cleaning out the refrigerator and going to the grocery and Farmer's Market. I also hope to get another bag of garbage out of the house again today. Trash pickup is Thursday and I would like to have the toter at least half full.
I tried filling contractor bags, but found they were too big for me to fill in one day. During the night, the cat and dogs would get into it, rip the bags and take out anything they though interesting. It was a losing battle.
The tall kitchen bags work better for me. I can fill one a day and get it out of the house for pick up.
Hope everyone is doing well today.

 
Mare
Posted: 06 August 2013 - 10:18 AM
 

Today I am feeling a bit overwhelmed and I did a little churning... then just looked at everything for a while. I have a habit of looking at the stuff and being paralyzed for a while and sometimes its just hard to snap out of that.

I will be doing my best to focus again but taking a break at the moment. Missing everyone here, too.

If anyone is up for a chat I will be in there, if I don't answer right away I will be back soon, I tend to go in and out hahaha.

 
Mare
Posted: 06 August 2013 - 10:15 AM
 

Hello everyone, its a new day!

Wow MayMay that is so funny and true, yes we should be able to trust those fine firefighters hahaha. Thank you for telling that story.

 
MayMay
Posted: 06 August 2013 - 12:40 AM
 

Hi everyone! 😀

Today I went to work. Then after work I went to my boyfriend's house. I gave Cory, Matt, and Snuggles all baths. And I fell into my boyfriend's toilet. That's right! I literally fell butt first into his toilet. LOL. 😀

Hi diane,
I'm sorry to hear about your bike carrier being stolen. I hope the cops will be able to catch the person who stole it.

Hi Mare,
Yeah I'll never forget the very first time I rode in a fire truck. I remember it happened a few weeks after I turned 18. There was a single car accident at the end of our street; and while the firefighters and paramedics were helping the person in the car, my parents and I watched from our window. Then after the paramedics left to take the person to the hospital, I went down to the end of the street to talk to the firefighters and ask them what happened. I talked to the firefighters for about an hour; and I told them that I liked their fire truck a lot. After I said that, they asked me if I wanted to ride in the fire truck, down to the fire station, with them. I remember being in so much shock when they asked me that. I was like, "OMG!!!!!! ARE YOU SERIOUS!?" And they were like, "yeah! And we'll show you around the fire station too." After they said that, I was like, "YES! I WOULD LOVE TO RIDE IN THE FIRE TRUCK WITH YOU GUYS AND SEE THE FIRE STATION!!!!!" 🙂

After I got back from the fire station, my mom was SO MAD! She gave me a HUGE LECTURE about how I could've been killed and stuff. I remember being like, "OMG! Are you serious mom? They were firefighters! Firefighters are supposed to be people you can TRUST! Back when I was a little kid in elementary school, I was taught that the 2 types of people I can always trust are firefighters and police officers. So stop being mad at me!" LOL.

Even though my mom was really mad at me, I DIDN'T REGRET GOING WITH THE FIREFIGHTERS AT ALL! 😉

 
Karl
Posted: 05 August 2013 - 11:43 PM
 

Diane, sorry to hear about the bike carrier disappearing -- I guess if it's been a while since you've used the bicycle, it might have been gone for some time without you noticing? Or do you know for sure that it was there recently?

 
Mare
Posted: 05 August 2013 - 05:41 PM
 

So an hour and twenty minutes but I took my time eating and playing with the dog, still it was longer than I thought, go me!

 
Mare
Posted: 05 August 2013 - 05:39 PM
 

I really enjoyed your post diane thank you and you're welcome haha, yes a great chat last night for me too. I agree about the structure.

Well... I forgot to look at the time but from my last post until now I have:

Put away the groceries,
hung up my new blouses,
put the shower curtain rod and hangers up, still have to add curtain,
had a good lunch,
and played with my sweet dog, Gizmo, what a joy.

I also put a call into my son-in-law's brother to bring me that appliance out of the basement, waiting to hear back from him (left a msg on h is voicemail). I am sure looking forward to being able to actually cook. Oh and I also bought:

1 small frying pan.
And another thing in:

1 electric double burner (small appliance for cooking).

Oh hmmm... it is 6 38 pm I guess that was dinner not lunch hahahaha.

Tally Ho!!!

 
diane
Posted: 05 August 2013 - 04:42 PM
 

correction:
My friend is NOt coming to help today.

 
diane
Posted: 05 August 2013 - 04:38 PM
 

thanks for the replies Roxie, Mare and Maymay.
Today I drove RV in to have leak fixed. I went to put bike on back cargo carrier, SURPRISE!! some thief took it, I kept looking, like it should be there, it was gone. Bike fit inside. Biked to police station and filed a report. I biked home, haven't biked in years, so hot and exhausted when got home. They just called, $195 to fix leak, will bike tomorrow and pick up. I will have it fixed, but sure hate paying that much for a few new hoses, should be able to fix myself. Now that Molly is doing better want to take a trip to lake and stay a few days. It is my only luxury, so maybe I will keep it another year, needs 2 new tires, will have to get new tags, over $200, insurance $200 for 6 months, so would be cheaper to stay in motel!! Not while Molly is still here, she barks in motel, quiet in RV, plus I prefer being in nature. Great to wake up with lake right there. Bummer cargo rack is gone, carried my blow up boat etc.
Last night after chat washed more bins and other stuff in yard until after dark, used my solar lights, fun. Today not so fun dealing with all the stuff. My friend is coming, her book group canceled, so won't be in town today.
I am too hot and tired anyway.
Today have to do some paper work, that has to be mailed, read work papers, for a phone meeting with boss, work Sept and Oct. sort and file the stack and toss and shred some.
Will do dishes today. Maybe it is a good thing it is hot and I am tired, I will get some things done in here. Thanks all for chat last night, it was so great having 15 minutes for each person. I think several of us have problems with anxiety, having a set time, adds the structure we need.

 
Mare
Posted: 05 August 2013 - 04:19 PM
 

Today I finally got a ride to the grocery store with a trusted friend, and it went really well... I felt good mentally and strong physically!

I put away the freezer and refrigerator items so now I have to tackle the rest of it, as well as putting up the shower curtain for which I bought a rod and hooks today. So in:

1 shower curtain rod
1 set (12) shower curtain hooks and I know where the curtain is.
1 small vacuum cleaner
1 are rug for which I actually have a clear space in the living room!!!
3 new blouses which I sorely need. If there is something I do NOT hoard it is clothes, I could list everything I have and it would be... *counts in her head* roughly 16 items I use regularly and a few winter items that are in drawers. I have set a goal to get new blouses and jeans each month so this month I did the limit and just love them. I is a denim shirt.
1 bottle of draino stuff
1 bottle of dish detergent
1 can of comet
I forgot a couple of necessities so will start a list.

Onward and upward, cheers!

 
Mare
Posted: 05 August 2013 - 11:41 AM
 

Anne - thank you so much, I have really been enjoying myself and everyone here so much. I have a habit of throwing myself into things full throttle hahaha.

I know what you mean about the therapists and other health care people. I receive county services so I have learned that they may very well leave when they find a new and better position, even though it feels like they are leaving me hanging, I have gotten better about the losses.

Our weather has also been atypical, so cool and pleasant, not really like summer at all so far.

diane - loved reading your posts. I was in Japan for 3 years but did not keep a kimono what a shame. I think the idea of pressing and framing/hanging on a wall is wonderful and if you have one you're going to throw out send it to me and I will do that hahaha!

Wow everyone is doing fantastic! So encouraging and motivational.

TO THE HOARD!!!

I plan to tackle some more of the boxes and bags in my clutter room today, but haven't decided which ones so I think I will just grab them one at a time willynilly and see how I do. I also will wipe out the refrigerator, feed and water the dog of course, put trash in the trash can to be taken out later if it fills up, tell myself to get rid of the excess hair stuff and old earrings *working on that*, sit outside and enjoy this unseasonally cool weather, and throw out the big box the a/c came in.

 
Mare
Posted: 05 August 2013 - 11:09 AM
 

diane - I had an old toilet at a previous house because my husband was a plumber! I used it as a planter which at first looked rather hilarious but as things grew and cascaded over the top and the ground cover got thicker it actually looked pretty neat hahaha.

MayMay - yes it was a huge adventure to drive it, it was empty thankfully, I told them they reaaaaalllllly wouldn't want me driving to a scene at 25 MPH!

I have a dog he is such a sweetheart - loyal, always nearby usually right beside me, and a great companion and comfort.

Kara Hello Kara so glad to see you and you are doing great.

Tillie that is so funny about the bins labeled STUFF hahaha.

Dianne that is a list that could be mine except for the game. I am finding a lot of things we all have in common which makes me feel safe and understood, what a joy.

Tillie I am still having a problem with getting out and to the store but today is a new day and we will see what happens.

WooooooooHoooooooooooo Kara!!! I am so glad you are posting and chatting and I love the 15 minutes tasks we are doing, so helpful.

Barb - welcome and so good to have you posting. I have started a journal but am not being regular about it yet, its a new day though with new opportunities, Yes charting feelings is helpful for me as well.

Yesterday my mood took a dip, after finding this where I was on a pink cloud - reading and posting and ohsovery happy! Those highs always result in a dip afterwards but I understand it and give it time to just pass. I am better this morning!

Roxie I completely understand how you feel when you can't get online I feel the same way. My electricity was off for a few hours last week and I thought I would go mad hahaha.

Also the feeling defeated over the oddest things... I find my moods and thoughts going all over the place from time to time and I am trying to keep a chart to see if there are any triggers/situations involved. I have to be careful of even doing that as the journaling itself can trigger some deep emotions which I am giving myself permission to just feel even if I do a lot of crying... its cathartic.

To Be Continued, still catching up!!!

 
Tillie
Posted: 05 August 2013 - 10:57 AM
 

Good morning 🙂

WAY TO GO Karl! for cleaning out the fire place. 😀
Closets are good places to store stuff that we want close at hand yet out of sight.
Great plan and lots of fun having a party on Friday.

My To-Dos for today....
sweep floors & porches
clean bathroom
wash floors
vacuum carpet
dust
Days like today make me glad my house is so small.
One room that is the livingroom, kitchen & dining area with one bathroom. ;D

Wishing everyone a GREAT new week.

 
Karl
Posted: 05 August 2013 - 01:06 AM
 

Tonight's primary task was to scoop the ashes out of the fireplace. I took out some ice cream for incentive, and used some empty ice cream cartons as containers for the ashes; those will go out to the curb Wednesday night. I also returned some items to the closet I'd previously cleaned out -- I decided it's better to keep the floor free for the box of vacuum cleaner attachments, so I put the cloth briefcases up on the shelf (which now has room!), and put the backpack on the hook with the cloth shopping bags.

As I mentioned during tonight's chat, I'm hoping to host a dinner party on Friday, the day before the inspection. This would be both an additional incentive to get everything in order by then, and a way to celebrate the accomplishment. (And possibly a few extra sets of eyeballs to check whether I've overlooked anything.)

 
MayMay
Posted: 05 August 2013 - 12:44 AM
 

Hi everyone! 😀

Thanks AnneW,
We are leaving for L.A. on August 24th. I'm SO EXCITED for the trip! I'm excited that I get to help another hoarder again, I'm excited that I get to have a crew with me this time, and I'm also very excited that I get to go to L.A. again. This trip will be my second trip to L.A. My family and I went to L.A. 9 years ago for a family vacation; and I absolutely LOVED IT there. I loved L.A. so much, that on the last day of the vacation, I cried because I didn't want to go home. I'm from a small town in Ohio. But in my heart, I'm a total CITY GIRL! 😀

Hi diane,
OMG! THAT IS SOOOOO COOL that your high school boyfriend played for the "NY Yankees" and the "Atlanta Braves". Sorry to hear that you guys aren't friends anymore. It sounds like his wife has some jealousy issues. Some of my guy friends' girlfriends have jealousy issues too; so I totally know what that is like. And I kind of always have a huge target on my back because of it. 🙁

 
Roxie
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 11:08 PM
 

Diane, the prof. crew spent two days at my house, and filled on whole dumpster to the top. However, they did not do deep cleaning and there is still that to do. There is also further purging and organizing. It was worth it to me because of my physical limitations and my magical thinking about how much I could do on my own.

What I think is great in your case is that you have done so very much, been tenacious, and can see results now. And I concur in the idea of getting the outside decluttered as much as possible before harder weather comes in.

I'm tinkering with little jobs outdoors to get cleared up some stuff that still needs to go. I'll get there.

 
diane
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 05:31 PM
 

Thanks Roxie, I had forgotten about coke, you are an encyclopedia of info. How long did it take the professionals to go through all your stuff? I think it is so great you had that done and are working on maintaining a clean house. I do get frustrated at the amount of time I am spending, but now have gone through almost everything and see I have to go through and get rid of so much more. his winter I can have fun sorting little things, mostly want to get all the outside stuff in appropriate areas before winter hits.

 
Tillie
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 05:26 PM
 

WAY TO GO!!!! 😀
everybody on all your accomplishments and maintaining and insights and future plans!

 
Roxie
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 05:24 PM
 

I'll post more before I get booted off again!

Diane, you can pour Coke onto those rusty bolts. Gotta be Coke. Then after awhile you can wire brush. Works like a charm. I used that method on my car battery connections. Makes you wonder about Coke and your guts, though. haha

And I'll be that baseball and those kimonos would do well on eBay if you were so inclined.

AnneW, you have accomplished an impressive amount of work, friend! Whatever you are doing, keep doing. It's good to hear from you again.

 
AnneW
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 05:10 PM
 

I forgot to include in the last post what I've gotten done recently...

Maintenance:
Kept Kitchen sink & counters clear (handwash dishes as I use them)
Washed kitchen counters, stovetop, inside fridge
Washed bathroom sink
Swept inside front entry
Took out co-mingled recycling (now I have cleared enough room to keep the curbside bin inside of the garage)
Maintained Kitchen Floor Clear
Maintained newly cleared entry area behind front door
Maintained 1 newly cleared large living room chair
Maintained master bedroom & 2 bathrooms

De-Clutter Progress:
1 stair step
Cleared 3 square feet of space between front entry & dining room
Cleared a space 3 feet long, by 1 foot wide, by 3 feet high in living room
Cleared off 2nd large living room chair
Cleared 2 foot by 2 foot area in basement backroom
Cleared 3 foot by 3 foot area in garage
Swept up & threw away multiple litters;) of Dust Dogs from all newly cleared areas!!!

 
diane
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 05:04 PM
 

correction:
My high school boyfriend played professional baseball.

 
diane
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 05:03 PM
 

Thanks for the laugh Tillie. The rust remover didnt work so when tried to twist wingnuts, they just broke wings off, so now sledgehammer might be a reality. It has a sign on it "Chicago Pottery" no wonder it is so heavy, it is a real pottery toilet. Never saw one before, so now I am sure it is worth lots of money----yeah right--Thanks for saying he labels bins "stuff", love it, thought I was the only one that used perfectly good bins for stuff I will never be able to find!!!!
I found some American League baseballs. My high school played for NY Yankees and Atlanta Braves, He had the whole team sign one ball, one has several, and a couple just him. I will have to look online and see who some of those guys are later, I did recognize some of the names. Brought back so many memories, he really loved me and I took him for granted, then married someone else, broke his heart, by the time I realized my mistake, he was married. Stayed friends for years until his wife said she would burn their house down if we ever talked again. Amazing how baseballs could bring a flood of emotions so intense. Also in that bin were 3 silk Kimonos I bought in Japan in 1981, guess I have been a hoarder for longer than I thought, they were buried under lots of junk.
Today I emptied more bins and they are in yard ready to be washed, amazing how much crap. Organized all painting pads and rollers, have enough to last for the rest of my life, now want to take paint from all of areas and put in that one area where pads and rollers and brushes are, so not looking all over for them. Still want to use most of paint before winter so don't have to give away!! Put more stuff from deck in garage where it belongs. Never thought the day would come where I had more storage bins that stuff, it is happening. Now have to wash another drainer full of dishes, have to talk myself into it.
Sorry to hear about the migraine, and happy to hear you are on the mend. Fun as usual reading all the chit chat between you all! Quite a community it is turning out to be.

 
AnneW
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 04:37 PM
 

WoW -- It is so cool to log on & read about all the great work everyone's doing (both physically & holistically :)! I skimmed through the updates here, but still want to go back & re-read all of them with more care.
It is such a beautiful day here weather-wise that after completing some indoor work, I decided to reward myself by sitting out under the trees & using my laptop to reply post. I always find it so ironic -- intentionally spending time outdoors while simultaneously remaining technologically tethered 😉 However, for me today -- I needed to get away from the indoor dust & get a little "Hug" from Nature along with the sunshine & the breeze 🙂

Wanted to say a big "Thank You!" to MayMay, Mare, Dianne, & Roxie for all of your support!!!

MayMay- Thank you so much for your kind words & positive encouragement! I love thinking about you & all 3 of your dogs playing in the pool at your Boss's house -- makes me smile 😀
Hey!When do you leave for your LA Hoard House Clean-Up Gig? I can't wait to hear all about it! (I think you said it's sometime this month)

Mare -- LoL- I could TOTALLY relate to your 4x "hand-off" encounter & getting to that point of saying "read the chart notes!" -- loved that you (I'm sure politely) offered those folks a reality check. As much as I know many people go into that line of work with the best intentions of wanting to help people, sometimes between the organizational systems in place & the management of care coordination there can seem to be a loss of perspective re: what's in the client's best interest. (I do realize this happens in all types of business -- but, I find, it is especially challenging when it relates directly to the care for one's own or one's family members' health.)
I have been enjoying reading your posts & appreciate the active work you are doing. Keep up the great job & your enthusiasm! 🙂

Dianne -- Can I tell you how much your post meant to me? What you wrote empowered me & that is priceless! It helped me alot. I had forgotten that part about how in therapy, the client is still the one who does the actual work & growth 🙂 - so even though I am sad & will miss the therapist I've been working with, whatever insights have been gained will remain. That helped to assuage some of my anxiety. I also found the part you shared about your process of going through things -- where you pull stuff out, go through & dump some stuff, then remaintain to be really helpful. I think it helped me to sidestep some of my "all or nothing" thinking & make a little bit of headway this weekend -- so, for all of that & more -- Thank You!!! (I also loved another post you wrote about your clever son's "tick check" as veiled request for a "scalp massage" when he was small 😉 Hope you are having a great time at the O's game today -- what perfect weather!!!

Roxie -- Thank you for your recount of your therapist & the red chair. (I am so sorry for that loss -- what a young age!!! But, I loved your touch of humor re: his choosing to stay on the other side b/c he liked it better 😉 I could relate to your dichotomy of feelings re: red chair! I feel like the really good therapists are able to appropriately confront &/or challenge clients w/in the safety & context of a foundation forged in trust -- but those challenges inevitably kick up a lot of "stuff," don't they?
The fact that you went on to find other helpful therapists was reassuring for me to read 🙂
Congratulations of your awesome brushing of teeth during the month of July!!!!
Are you thinking about doing calendar stars for August? How are the plants you ordered getting on in your yard? Also, are your indoor cats still lovin' the cat tower/tree?

Tillie -- I was so glad to read that your yard & plants seemed to have weathered well the bout without water -- such good news:) As is the news that your hoarder seems to be making some forward progress! (But, I also enjoyed reading your "reality check" re: how pleased you were with all the great work you did in the areas that you could access 🙂 -- What a great affirmation & sense of victory!!!

Hi Diane, Kara, Janie, Karl, Barb, Betsy, Ali & everybody else!

Looking forward to reading more from all of you!

 
Roxie
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 04:12 PM
 

I've been in despair because I could not get online until just now. I feel so aloooooooooone and miserable when that happens. 🙁

But, meanwhile, and while I was fiddling with the computer, I did:

my three dailies (meds, teeth, scoop litter box)

I replaced the lightbulbs on the patio ceiling (after cleaning the cover)(been on my list for weeks)

I sorted through a few handsful of old old mail sitting by my tv sitting area for weeks) and am preparing to dump garbage bags of paper

I rescued a beatle from my bathtub and released him outside

I applied flea TX to 2/7 cats (gotta catch the others unaware)

The second new box cutter also does not work. I'll take it back to the place and ask them to fix it so I can use it, or replace it (and prove the new one works), or get a refund. Grrr.

I used a folding ladder/chair from the kitchen to get up to the patio ceiling fixture and now I cannot collapse it again to bring it inside. I get so defeated by the dumbest things, something that would never have defeated me previously.

I am determined that within the next week I conquer all the cat/litter related issues arising. They have taken to soiling piles of paper in my second bedroom that I had not yet sorted, and pooping on the floor, too. I am sure it is because I did not scoop/maintain the two bathroom boxes. I need to remove, clean and refill those two boxes; clean that bathroom floor; go through and toss what must be tossed in the soiled piles; scrape and remove any debris or deposits, then scrub that floor. I was only in the 2nd bedroom about five minutes and sweat was dripping off me so I really dread it.

 
Barb
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 12:02 PM
 

Hi Kara,
Congratulations on your progress!
I find that taking time to visualize what I am going to do and how it will look afterwards does help. Then I am psyched up to dive right in. Beginning the first task is sometimes the hardest.
Also I keep a spiral notebook to record 3 things that I want to do today and check them off as they are accomplished. If my emotions get in the way, I can jot down in the notebook what I am feeling and why.
Last week I was able to keep up on the daily maintenance tasks and made some appointments to see the eye doctor and dentist. Those are things I need to do to take care of myself.
Today starts a new week.

 
Tillie
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 10:17 AM
 

Good morning 🙂

This morning I need to go into town and shop.
I need food and some cat stuff and want some other stuff too.

But first I must....
feed the cats their breakfast
scoop litter boxes
fresh water in their bowls
get dressed, brush my hair, wash my face & brush my teeth
need to wash the kittens face, he has allergies and after playing in my hoarder's bedroom his eyes water from being in the dust
fold up my bedding and make the couch ( I sleep on the hide-a-bed sofa) so my bedroom is also the livingroom
I have a little tiny room where I keep all my clothes and stuff but it is too small for a bed

Remember ONLINE SUPPORT GROUP tonight at 5:00pm PST.

Have a great Sunday! 🙂

 
Kara
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 10:17 AM
 

Been really good today. And more importantly FEELING really good. I can see the bedroom floor now. Not sure what to do with the clothes on the made bed yet. I can see my vision coming through my work.Haven't dealt with any of the "STUFF" yet. Spent 20 or so mins looking through past sketch books. My vision doesn't mention where these things go. Office maybe? Haven't started there yet. Nearly time of me to move furniture. WWWOOOOOOOOOOOHhhhOOOOOOO! Chat to you tonight.

 
Dianne
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 10:14 AM
 

Good Morning Almost Afternoon,

I lost a whole day yesterday to sleep with some groggy awareness. Killer migraine. Since I was well caught up it didn't set me back.

Today is maintain again.

Write, mail or do bills online.

Get out to buy some healthy food

Take care of some personal needs

Go to an Orioles game

Get already loaded trash bins to curb for pickup

 
Tillie
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 09:44 AM
 

Diane,
A sledge hammer sounds like a lot of fun! 😀
You could get out a lot of frustration smashing up that old toilet. Just be sure to wear eye protection, long pants, shoes and gloves.

My hoarder has a large collection of plastic storage bins all full of a complete jumble of everything.
He has labeled them all "stuff" so he has no idea what is in them and can't find anything without dumping them all out. HAHA 😉

 
Karl
Posted: 04 August 2013 - 04:10 AM
 

Better be careful about playing the "firefighter card" -- someone could interpret that as a threat. "Gee, it would be a shame if something were to happen to this store, and all of these firefighters happened to be busy."

 
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