Thank you Dianne (((hugs)))
This is totally for him.
My computer speed is fast enough for everything I do but he wastes many hours playing games online and gamers always want faster & faster speeds. 🙁

One thing that really depresses me is that when he should be doing something/anything around here I see him sitting/hiding at his computer in his bedroom or in the garage playing stupid games.
This fiber optic cable installation would also allow us to have cable TV but I have made it very clear that there will be NO cable TV installed here.
He would just watch TV non stop. Stupid stuff like sitcoms from the 50s & 60s.

Oh Tillie, I know exactly how you feel. The physical discomfort and stress takes a lot out of us.

Will you have any satisfaction from this benefiting you or will it all be for your hoarder's benefit?

Good morning 🙂

Sure is quiet around here.

Today is the day 🙁
My hoarder scheduled for the phone company to hook up the fiber optic cables so that he can have faster internet speed. Of course he won't be here cause he's at work.
This means that a person or people will be coming to my house and will talk at me.
I do NOT like people coming here.
I am feeling very anxious and want to cry, lock the doors, close the drapes and pretend I'm not here.
All my "no clutter zones" are clean and tidy but that has nothing to do with how I feel.
I was told that after they install the stuff outside they will be coming inside to mount something on an interior wall.

I like when my few acquaintences come over and am happy to let them in.
But I hate hate hate having to allow other people inside.
My stomach hurts.

This whole thing is just ruining my whole day. 🙁
Thank you for allowing me to rant.

Hope you all are having better days. 🙂

I was unable to get online this morning, so I left the computer to do its own inspection and repair, and lay down to rest because I didn't feel well. I woke up 12 hours later. The computer still had work to do, so I started it through its paces and watched tv.

Hello everyone, great job Kara, so nice to have you back!

After 3.5 days of Brownie Holiday I spent 2 hours of cleaning the village hall 60 miles away from home. Swept floor 4 times, hoovered the entrance, and cleansed the worktops down between 5 of us.

I have done cleaning just not my home.

Good morning evertbody! 🙂

My To-Dos for today are few...
Cook food then clean the kitchen.
The goop he used to fix the leak under the kitchen sink should be all dry by now so this is a great way to test it.
Looking forward to using my new faucet. 🙂

Well I am making good progress and an online friend has been spotting me for 15 minute stints, its been very helpful of course...

Cleaned and swept the bathroom
cleaned the kitchen and swept it and the hall

Still working off and on, 15 minutes, 15 minutes!

Oh p/s!!

I will be in and out of the chat where if anyone would like to join me for chat and/or chores!

Today I want to get back into things... feeling a little stronger today, so will do some hits every time I get up to include:

Clean the bathroom
Sweep and mop everything I can get to
Start back in on the bags and boxes, 1 at a time in 15 minute spurts
Vacuum
Dishes (only a couple)
Keep my little dog happy!

To the Day!

Bonnie I love this too, it helps with everything from doing a chore to posting my accountabilities stuff to just hearing how everyone is doing and feeling more connected and motivated.

I haven't been able to do much this week but coming here helps that, too... not feeling so down on myself and knowing this will pass and I can get back into things again when I can.

Thanks Tillie!!!!!!

WAY TO GO! Bonnie 😀

Done, Done, and Done!! Took it to the post office and off it went. I cannot believe how expensive it is to mail stuff. Certified from NY to IL cost $6.41!!!! Whatever, the main thing is it is done!! And, I have to admit, if I had not posted it earlier this morning I probably would not have gotten it done today!!

Hello All!

I woke up this morning with a wicked headache. Also, something that I did yesterday did my back in so my day is just getting started. I have one goal for today and that is to get my mtg modification paper work in the mail.

Oh, and I caught a mouse in one of the traps I set - EWWWWWWWW.

Good morning 🙂

My To-Dos for today....
Clean the bathroom.
Sweep floors & porches.
Wash the floors.
Vacuum the carpet.
Dust.
Wash my hair.
Water the trees & bushes.

Monday, the start of a whole new week. 🙂

WAY TO GO! Dianne 😀

Wow Dianne that is wonderful and inspiring... maybe I will tackle a few drawers myself this week. Still fighting being so tired but getting some better. I think I am adjusting to the new medication increase, it makes me drowsy so coupled with the fatigue.. well.

I hope to see everyone in the meeting in just a few minutes!

Today I got 11 dresser drawers cleaned out.

4 loads of clothes washed, dried and put away.

Hello gang!

Tillie I think I will not watch them if they are that scary... living alone and already spooked out too often haha... thank you so much.

Hope everyone is alright today, still thinking about you Janie and hope you come back.

Ready for the meeting tonight... looking forward to seeing you all there.

Hi everybody 😀

Hi Dianne 🙂
He got the new faucet installed. Don't know if it leaks yet because he messed up the drain pipe down under the sink and it leaks real bad now. He put some stuff on it and I have to wait for it to dry before testing it all out. 🙁
WAY TO GO! on asking the installation men to repeat the explaination and making a big effort to understand them. Technical stuff is never easy. 😀

Hi Roxie 🙂

More (((HUGS))) for Janie 🙂

Hi Mare 🙂
Those movies have big very scary monsters in them.

Hi everybody else who reads here! 😀

What am I doing today?
Got up and fed the cats, filled water & kibble bowls, scooped litter boxes, made my bed, got dressed, brushed my teeth, washed my face, brushed & braided my hair, put on sandals and a wide brimmed straw hat, grabbed my shopping list, went into town to the grocery store, came home & put all the food away, stuck to my list and did not buy any junk, cats all went out into the garden and played while I stood guard, grabbed a bite to eat, sat down and turned on my computer. 😀
Will now just tinker about in here till
5:00pm PST online support group. 😀

{{{{Oh dear Janie}}}}

There is so much to say. But all I really want to do is hug you and cry with you. May you receive the strength you need to cope yourself and to hold your brother in love and support.

Janie, so sorry to hear about your brother. We're here if you need us. ((hugs))

Dear Janie

(((HUGS)))

Please take care and come post here to let us know how you are doing. (((HUGS)))

"A psychologist walked around a room while teaching stress management to an audience. As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they'd be asked the "half empty or half full" question. Instead, with a smile on her face, she inquired, "How heavy is this glass of water?"

Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. to 20 oz. She replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, it's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my arm. If I hold it for a day, my arm will feel numb and paralyzed. In each case, the weight of the glass doesn't change, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes."

She continued, "The stresses and worries in life are like that glass of water. Think about them for a while and nothing happens. Think about them a bit longer and they begin to hurt. And if you think about them all day long, you will feel paralyzed - incapable of doing anything. It's important to remember to let go of your stresses. As early in the evening as you can, put all your burdens down. Don't carry them through the evening and into the night. Remember to put the glass down!"

Ohmygoodness, Janie... so sorry to hear about your brother... do come back soon (here, I mean) and lean on us for support and encouragement for anything and everything...

Hi MayMay, big congrats Karl, yes indeedy... 15 minutes at a time is working for me, too, thanks to the chat, the buddy system and everyone here.

Ohyes Tillie I had forgotten you saying about the blurays and DVD's. I have many but no player at the moment so I watch them on TV or the internet, depending, right now I have all the movie channels for free so am trying to take advantage of it, in fact I just recorded The Thing, is it good? Is it overly scary? Prequel?! Is it any good? I have to be careful not to spook myself too badly as I just learned (from the doctor) that I am in hyper-vigilance mode because of brain chemical activity... go figure, but it does explain a lot of the anxiety.

Yes the getting out was huge for me, first time alone in I-don't-know-when, very exciting and it tells me its possible and I can do it again.

That is so good Diane... I can so relate, congratulations and remember how much we love and think about you, you are a far cry from incompetent, stupid, or a baby! A FAR cry!

So good to hear about your daughter and the cleaning up, the beds... wow.

Today still fighting fatigue so decided to just give in and slept yet again, ahwell... doing what I can!

Just checking in. I haven't been here since Aug 1st and tried to read most posts. CONGRATS to everyone!! You all seem to be doing great and keeping the momentum going. What an awesome group you all are, giving support and encouragement to everyone, and helping each other get through our issues.

My house has gone more downhill in the past 10 days and I really don't care. But this experience has given me more resolve to get things done once I recover emotionally. I talked to my husband last night about the need to get our affairs in order. And my need to get the house de-cluttered. I just want to live peacefully after all this is over, and not be surrounded by unnecessary crap. So, I will be back posting as soon as I can get through all this. Please don't give up on me!!

Just checking in. I haven't been here since Aug 1st and tried to read most posts. CONGRATS to everyone!! You all seem to be doing great and keeping the momentum going. What an awesome group you all are, giving support and encouragement to everyone, and helping each other get through our issues.

My house has gone more downhill in the past 10 days and I really don't care. But this experience has given me more resolve to get things done once I recover emotionally. I talked to my husband last night about the need to get our affairs in order. And my need to get the house de-cluttered. I just want to live peacefully after all this is over, and not be surrounded by unnecessary crap. So, I will be back posting as soon as I can get through all this. Please don't give up on me!!

My at home daughter was iffy about new beds because it meant we have to do major clear out in the bedrooms. But when I was out today she got so much done! We saw her floor for the first time in years maybe? I didn't even ask what she tossed, I'm just excited she was motivated.

I decided not to have my brother help me clear out. I just can't get work done with other people in here. This week showed me that. So although I really appreciated his support I have to do the bulk of this on my own. When it gets to getting out heavy things that I have already made a decision on, like rugs, then he and my nephew could do that. But just for making decisions and clearing ~ if it's my stuff it's gotta be me.