Oh Lila, I so wish I could help you.

I don't know what it's possible to get done in a day. Sometimes a lot. Sometimes nothing. I think if you are truly fed up it can help.

I'm not sure you need the badger you might need something gentler. Like Mrs Tiggy-Winkle.

I think because there is more stuff than space, the best answer is to start somewhere you are likely to be able to let go of something and then make sure all the somethings actually leave today. Second guessing is our enemy.

The toys and things are getting easier for me as Bean gets bigger. I have literally thousands of dollars worth of toys, games, and books in this house. Yesterday Bean played inside really happily for a couple of hours with a few matchbox cars, a yardstick, a plastic bowl, and a half pint of shelled beans.

Also, ask yourself, is this a toy (thing that your grandchildren can use, enjoy, and possibly use up because things wear out) or a souvenir of someone's childhood? How many souvenirs do you need? Don't let your past fill your life to the point where there is no room for your future.

CM your comments on watching your roommate declutter were really insightful. That stopping and starting thing is incredibly hard. I think it's why school has always worked so well for me. - there is this strong, external schedule about when to start and stop different things that is being enforced on everybody at the same time. When I try to impose something like that on myself at home, I always fail.

Also the mental list. My mental list is loud and chaotic and makes me feel exhausted and horrible about myself. Then I dump it all out on paper and it stops for a while, but I can't remember any of it without the paper.

I skipped my class last night. Bean and I were having such a fun and productive time in the yard, and the weather was so nice. I messaged Dd and asked if she would be willing to pick him up any time after work and I would skip class, and she said yes.

Then she showed up, cooked dinner, and stayed until his bedtime because she was having a really difficult mental health day. It really breaks my heart watching her struggle. Being pregnant makes it so much worse for her. Her Dh took the opportunity to go to a movie with a friend last night. I'm glad he got a break. Being primary parent for a three year old plus primary support person for my daughter is a lot! I am just hoping that in six months they will have a healthy baby and Dd will be able to find some medicine that helps her.

I did take time after they left to finish cleaning up the things Bean and I used in the yard and take down the things on the clothesline. This morning I was really pleased with myself about that because when I got up, it was raining.

I turned my alarm off twice and I still feel like I have been hit by a truck. I think yesterday was more physically and emotionally demanding than I realized.

I will check back later.

Lila, go find something you can do in your room. Or the storage room.

Nighttime post -

How much do you think it is possible to do in one day? Do you think it is possible for me to get my bedroom all done in one day? I have probably one more day at home sick before returning to work, and I am considering doing an all-in bedroom attack. More and more things I need are getting lost, and it has become unacceptable. Things I have to have!

Literally it is just piles with barely a walking path in there. I keep throwing stuff in there because Acorn is literally into everything, and at a year and a half old does not really understand which things not to touch, so I have to keep putting things up high or in my room. All the up high spots are over-filled. I might be able to box things up in a bin and move to the garage. But a lot of it, I really probably just need to let go of and stop holding onto for 25+ years.

I think the only reason, I KNOW the only reason I was able to get the whole downstairs and garage purged is because of my son helping me and a pressing need. This I cannot have help with. My bedroom has a lot of personal things. I don't even want my kids in there going through it.

The little bedroom that was a staging area is even more piled than my room, with NO room to walk. I am so ashamed of the whole situation, just piles 3 - 4 feet high and I walk in and get so frozen I can't get rid of anything.

Help? Badger? Something...

Nighttime post -

How much do you think it is possible to do in one day? Do you think it is possible for me to get my bedroom all done in one day? I have probably one more day at home sick before returning to work, and I am considering doing an all-in bedroom attack. More and more things I need are getting lost, and it has become unacceptable. Things I have to have!

Literally it is just piles with barely a walking path in there. I keep throwing stuff in there because Acorn is literally into everything, and at a year and a half old does not really understand which things not to touch, so I have to keep putting things up high or in my room. All the up high spots are over-filled. I might be able to box things up in a bin and move to the garage. But a lot of it, I really probably just need to let go of and stop holding onto for 25+ years.

I think the only reason, I KNOW the only reason I was able to get the whole downstairs and garage purged is because of my son helping me and a pressing need. This I cannot have help with. My bedroom has a lot of personal things. I don't even want my kids in there going through it.

The little bedroom that was a staging area is even more piled than my room, with NO room to walk. I am so ashamed of the whole situation, just piles 3 - 4 feet high and I walk in and get so frozen I can't get rid of anything.

Help? Badger? Something...

hi friends. It is a beautiful day and inside I feel grey. I will spend some time out on the deck in the sun to help with that. I am now on antibiotics, so hopefully will get better soon. I am tired. Missing more and more work.

Today I:
-loaded the dishwasher and it is running
- picked up some trash and stuff to put in its place in the living room
- put away some teas and food from the crazy bar/counter
- sorted and tossed out some mail
- put away, like, 3 things in my bedroom
- took out the trash from my bathroom and picked up any trash near my bed to go in it

So that is something, not much, but something, plus feeding dogs, reading to kids, holding the baby, talking to Tot, feeding Teen something. And trying to read a book.

Two items on the Daily Tally. I will keep picking away at things but I feel like I need adderall or something to get any motivation.

Yeah, SubC, I do anticipate roommate's getting some of her books off the bookshelves in my bedroom, though it will be piecemeal. It will still help.

It's interesting to watch a non-ADHD person declutter. I'm trying to figure out what is different and see if some of it will rub off. Most likely the biggest difference is that she can much more easily use small bits of time to do tasks because a) she doesn't struggle with starting and stopping and getting going again nearly as much, and b) she has a sort of running mental list from which she quickly selects a task to fill an impromptu available amount of time - and does this using good prioritizing that is in line with her overall goals, without getting stuck in indecision. It's all pretty amazing to observe. And I have been asking her questions about her process, picking her brain as it were. Some of it doesn't compute, but some of it I think I can latch onto and implement.

Lila, I hope you can soon be out of the sickness pattern.

I had one Breyer horse but I sold it many years ago.

I must go and color my hair - roommate kindly fetched me the conditioner because I'd forgotten to get a new tube, because it was on the shopping list in my old phone that got deleted. I had been about to start the whole process when I discovered this. Glad I didn't have my head all wet and sloppy with color.

Good morning.

Calm before the storm here. Dh has gone to work out and Bean is sleeping.

So many options today - filling the green stalk (tall pot thing) and planting strawberry plants, pulling weeds, digging a trench for grapevine starts, preparing seed potatoes, washing feed bags for tarps,

And my friend brought me milk from her cow (A2A2) so I prepped custard last night to freeze today. - a very excited Bean chose "Vanilla!"

Plus the usual toys and games.

And laundry, and bath, and I have class tonight.

Basically today is just a "trying to keep up" day.

Yay Tatoulia!

I made some more progress in the studio and got two pots decorated with feathers and two little hatching dragons glazed and ready to fire, I'll probably put them on my Instagram next week.

Bean is here now. His mom took a bin of clothes and most of my plastic eggs for their egg hunt next week. The eggs will (mostly) come back.

She said she doesn't remember about the horses and just do whatever her sister says.

Okay second suitcase tackled. It didn't have much in it and now I'm done with it. Will need to take it to goodwill.

I have those mom dresses that I washed. I am going to out them in the American Tourister for now. The American Tourister I will take to the consignment shop but for now I need to put the mom dresses somewhere.

So I made some space and it was painless so honestly. We ca all finish that sentence for ourselves.

The concert and the walk sound lovely, SubC.

If the neighbor doesn't take the car, I have two more people to ask if they want it. One is another neighbor who I watched grow up and one is somebody who I don't know but seems like she could use a boost. She's young and once said something about needing a car. At Christmas she had no plans whatsoever and so i gave her a card with a gift card in it. It was well after hours. She cried and cried. Since I was t having Christmas here, I could not invite her to my festivities and told her so.

I will call the garage people and see if they can let me stay another month at the old cost (new contract April 1 is $90 higher). I don't anticipate a problem with that. I'm unwilling to do that with the original neighbor because I've offered to help with the insurance. If no one wants it (and I get it, we are talking about city living here) my friend in the suburbs said I can park it at her place and sell it from there. It's a Toyota with 103k miles, garage-parked, so it has a lot of time left on it.

I'm not worried about it. Yet

Today I'd like to consider going to goodwill if I can get a bag together. Best way to do that? Open the other suitcase!

Post in two parts because I lost one yesterday.

Lila,

I think you are just exhausted. Stress and lack of rest are really hard on your immune system. You do so much and you have had so many changes and challenges. Could one of the people in your house maybe make stir fry or soup (for veggies) or fruit smoothies out of your ingredients?

You need a vacation week like I claimed in June.

(I am actually thinking about trying to do that every year)

Good morning!

Tatoulia,

Yay for an easy win on the recycling! Will you sell the car if the neighbor doesn't want it? Will you be able to find a place to park it?

Funny story - my parents and my in-laws visited New York City the same year.

My dad drove the old beat up car he had been trying unload for months but couldn't sell for anything near it's blue book, parked on the street, and left it unlocked (my dad habitually leaves his car unlocked, he was an insurance agent and his philosophy is - leave nothing in your car. If it's the car itself they want, the lock won't help.) My parents travel light. My Dad likes to eat out, and when my mom says "what if I need?" My Dad says "I'll buy you one."

My in-laws generally try to do everything as cheaply as possible, but they sprung for a parking garage. They also packed all of their food for the day, brought gear for every change of weather, and carry tools in case something goes wrong with the car (my fil knows how to fix most "somethings") my mother in law locks everything and triple checks. If you go out to your car to get something, she locks you out of the house while you're doing it.

Guess whose car was stolen. My Dad said it was so unfair.

Badger wants another suitcase.

CM, IIRC, it's the getting things away from walls and creating access that is the really stressful part of the termite check? I remember that from every time we've had anything done in our basement. You have my sympathy. Maybe the process will turn up something that can go..

The concert last night was really good. We couldn't park in our usual garage because there was also a soccer game. Instead we ended up parking by the library and walking four blocks and then cutting through the park. It was a nice walk even though it was cold and windy. I can totally see not having a car if you lived in the city. Ours has a free street trolley as well as busses.

I didn't get to bed until almost midnight, but still woke up at 5:30. Bean is spending the night tonight, so the two of us will probably go to bed at the same time.

Before that I plan to get back out to the pottery studio, clean up a bit more, and actually make something today.

Hi everyone! Lila, I am so sorry you are suffering from serial illnesses! Really terrible. Cm! Good to hear from you! The termite inspection won't take too long, I hope. But the anxiety leading up to it must be great. You'll be okay, just keep breathing!

Good work on the horses, SubC, esp being able to throw out the broken one.

We have had torrential rain all day. I slept most of the day but I opened one suitcase and everything in it can go to recycling. It was my friend's promotional materials for one of her books and the publisher went belly up so I can get rid of them. She'd need to get all new since the IBSN number would change. Before BF left we found a couple of boxes of her stuff and we had never opened them and one of the boxes had the promotional materials for someone else's book. I'd previously had a drawer full of her stuff for a different book and I put it in recycling. So that was easy and that was something. Still have not opened mom's suitcase. The one I opened is a funny old American Tourister suitcase that I should try to sell.

I don't know what's going on with the car. I think the neighbor truly cannot afford it. I sent him a long text yesterday telling him I don't want them making a bad decision and that they really need to think about it

Living without a car is very freeing for me, CM. I went 16 years without one and I remember when I did buy one, my boss said how he always found me so breezy because I didn't own a car. I am glad I finally did get one because that's how I met my BF. I would have never met him but for renting a garage space next to his business.

I am afraid at my age that I need to walk as much as possible. I don't want to get too sedentary.

So that's the news. I'm making the smallest progress possible but again, it was a really small badger.

You are doing good with the horses. SubC. I too have horses from my childhood, most of them arranged on top of my wardrobe. They are Breyer horses. I sold all but my favorites when I was 18. Maybe my grandkids will play with these. But they feel like a connection to my childhood.

I am sicker today and feeling so tired and icky. It is already almost 3pm and I feel like I just crawled out of bed. I have done literally nothing. Looks like I will miss work again tomorrow.

I don't know what is up with my getting sick over and over, but my family also catches the same things, just not all of them. I mean, Son got the cold but not the vomiting. Teen got the vomiting but not the cold. I got the virus before that. How do I get to where I stop getting sick?

I am too tired to do anything, and the ingredients I bought for recipes are rotting in the fridge because I am too tired and sick to cook them, no one else wants to, and I can barely taste anyway.

Not sure how to get out of this funk.

CM, we will both need a do over on the equinox. Or maybe better luck next year.

Ten cubic feet is a lot and you do get some credit. I am hoping that as your roommate keeps decluttering, , things that are hers will move out of your room, giving you more space to move around and work on your things. I know it doesn't always work like that though.

Dh and I worked out in the pottery studio barn. I don't have any items except the three horses listed in the tally thread, but a lot of things got sorted out and put away properly and we created two paper ream boxes of recycling and a plastic grocery bag of trash, so that is progress.

The remaining horses are drying on my counter. There are three that will get put away elsewhere because they are the wrong scale, a horse, a pony, and a baby pony that were mine that will go back in the barn, two horses that were my girls' that will go back in the barn unless they object, two horses that were my girls' that I want them to take or let me get rid of (I will pack dd2's in her bins for now if she asks) and two horses that are going to the kids resale shop. The barn has 4 stalls. If you add it up, there were 15 horses stuffed in it.

I could only find one of the stockings I wanted to wear tonight. I now want to take everything out of my closet, clean it, and put back the things I want to keep neatly. Except I know that half my clothes don't fit and I want to loose more weight first so that everything in the closet fits. Sigh. Also, this really is not where I need to focus right now - which is probably why I want to do it.

Hi, days went by faster than I could keep up with them. I barely marked the equinox which was also St. Joseph's Day. In years where I'm more on the ball I probably would have gone to Mass because I really love St. Joseph and I need his help with so many things. Took a class about him in 2021, which Pope Francis had declared the Year of St. Joseph. Well, at least on that day I did have my Bible study class, the last one of this session. The group has bonded and some of us will try and get together informally over the summer plus the leader will hopefully have something new put together by fall. I so missed the in person faith group thing during the post Covid last couple of years.

It was a busy week overall. And unfortunately next week will be so as well, and with a juxtaposition I'd rather not have, and other challenges.

The juxtaposition: We have to prepare for termite inspection which is always a huge hassle - and it's Holy Week which I would love to have as a quieter, reflective time. This doesn't happen most years, because the inspection is always in March and Easter is usually in April. And usually the inspection was more during spring break week but somehow this time it was the last week of the month.

The other challenges are that the weather turned colder again - that sort of winter trying to hang on a bit phenomenon. And some of our preparation for the inspection will be outside in the detached garage. Sigh. It's been very changeable overall and probably will be for awhile.

So I'm just like blah 😛 but trying to not let it bug me too much or make me grouchy. Roommate has been doing a lot of decluttering of papers and we took 10 cubic feet of her stuff to the thrift shop. Do I get partial credit for that since I drove? I want to let her doings inspire me to do more of my own. We've had bunny events and I'm still sort of regrouping.

The badger - can't remember who initiated the running joke, could've been SubC or Tillie, or even yours truly. I know had at one point I had made and posted a meme of it, but I don't know if I can remember when that wa, or how to repost it. I seem to have forgotten how to make images upload and display here. But if I figure it out I'll repost the picture. Or maybe make us a photo bucket type thing for pictures. I definitely miss emojis here since they quit working.

SubC I guess Useless is not entirely useless if his single one can make him a daddy, lol.

Lila, I hope soon you get well for good! I totally understand the bit about trying to make your room into a peaceful sanctuary whilst living with other people, and how hard that can be.

Tatoulia, I am very opposite of you, I can't imagine life without a vehicle of my own, especially when one has to walk in bad weather, and I'm too agoraphobic to walk very far. I feel too vulnerable or something. And many areas used to be safer than they are now. But you are probably more used to walking in a large urban environment. In any case, I hope it goes well rehoming the car.

I'm not sure how much time I'll get to post before Easter but maybe I can pop in here and there. Wish me luck getting ready for the bug man.

Slept ten hours last night and had a lazy morning.

Chores are done, breakfast eaten, and the heat is warming up the pottery studio.

There is a toy barn that has been stashed near my pottery area for years - it was mine, and my kids played with it. I keep thinking "I should clean that and fix the railings and let Bean play with it. I wonder where the horses are?"

So I opened it. The horses were piled inside. In a non-climate controlled space. Where there is clay dust and diesel exhaust and a wide range of humidity. Also, there ar more horses than stalls.

I grabbed the three off the top:
1) White pony I loved as a kid - broken. Sigh. - into trash
2) brown pony, washed ok, but not that great a horse - donate bin
3) Large Breyer Gelding I remember from my childhood, washed great, drying on counter for Bean.

Lila, I hope you are feeling better today.

Tatoulia - BADGER!

CM, check in with at least a "hi" if you stop by.

Off to grab some more horses..

Hi ladies!

Lila, you are doing a lot! But I know the feeling of frustration with respect to how much more needs to be done. Tillie used to tell us that once we got space to guard it. Spend time each day guarding it. I have not followed this to a T by any measure, but it has helped me quite a bit.

I got up early to take my cat to the vet for blood work. It's pouring rain. I feel that every time that I take her we are having massive weather. And it is round trip one mile of walking. So she's mad and wet.

I was supposed to meet BF's niece for coffee today and I just asked her if she wants to move due to the torrential rains and she agreed to wait til next week to catch up. She's so lovely and accomplished. Not really his niece but that's his way of talking. The girls call him uncle.

I am going to make breakfast and start laundry. And then I'm going to look within my soul and see if the badger is staring back.

Aww, Lila, I'm sorry you were lonely. I hate that.

We did post this morning.

It was a full day for me - morning chores, getting ready for school, dropping recycling off, making copies and a short conference, teaching, loading the kiln, dropping books off, dinner with Dh, a long conversation with dd2, compost out and evening chores.

Tired.

You were quite productive.

Yes, the buck is named Useless. I didn't want to use him for breeding, so he had no purpose here. I try not to give names to the ones I am planning to sell, but I couldn't sell him because he has an undescended testicle, and he was here so long his nickname became his name. Now I haven't found a new buck and just need to freshen my does,so he ended up being useful after all..

Tatoulia, I am picturing the badger crouched in your closet between a bin and a suitcase. Hope your evaluation went well.

I'm yawning the top of my head off, so I will check back tomorrow.

Awww nobody posted today.

What did I get done today? Feels like nothing at all, so I will list it.

- Washed a few dishes that were in the sink.
- ordered some medicines and stuff from the store
- paid all the bills online
- deposited some checks I had sitting here
- folded a few bath towels and put them away
- asked my son to pick up prescriptions for me (he did)
- made a change to an autopay thing online
- found 2 items to add to the Daily Tally

I think that's it, besides feeding the dogs and letting them out and doing some reading. Watched tv, ate junk, made a couple phone calls

Badger badger!! Looking at you, Tatoulia!

I do remember mention of a badger some time ago but never the picture.

Oh I am tired. Your goat's name is Useless, SubC? lol... funny!

Where is Road, where are some more people? Maybe CM will come around.

I am home sicker, Teen got the stomach bug, poor thing, it's terrible. Son (youngest son) got the cold I have and has to work from home. I have today and tomorrow off. I have been sick so much I never have a day off where I can get anything done. But I will try. I forgot it is trash day.

My bedroom is very difficult to navigate. The small bedroom which is now storage is worse, piled high, you can't get in. The other small bedroom upstairs is the play room and toys are everywhere, and my nephew is coming for Easter and will need to sleep in there, so I will have to clean up the toys or ask Tot to do it. She is pretty helpful.

I don't know where to begin.

There is just so much.

I'm tired just reading your to-do list, SubC!

Yes get that fence date changed!

We can just say Badger. I know all too well what she looks like. She looks like a suitcase and two bins in my closet. (Insert sheepish grin here)

Have a great day, everyone. I have my performance eval today. Got the written one yesterday and pretty good!

The badger didn't work.

I forgot the teacher social activity I'm also running in April.

Good morning!

Tatoulia, let's see if badger works :

?

I think we stopped sending him around because the emojis weren't working, but if he's up there, he's yours. If there is just something odd in that space, well, I guess we'll have to make do - like the little prince, and you can keep him a while anyway.

I hope you open the suitcase and think "oh, I don't need any of this". Sometimes people upcycle those old hard side suitcases for decor. Maybe it will find new life.

Insurance! - duh. I was trying to figure out why a free car would be expensive.

I got the last of my spring seeds started yesterday. I should have done it two weeks ago, but I was afraid they would come up and get leggy while I was gone, and then I just had trouble getting to it for a few days when I got back. It will be ok. It's mostly basil. I am realizing I need to sort out the seed starting stuff and plant pots. Too many of the things I have kept belong to our friend Justin.

Dh has a business trip the week after Easter. I have just realized that that week is the earliest my fence may arrive. I need to contact them because I can't unload it if he isn't here to operate the forklift and this will be the one time something gets done quickly, right?

April is feeling so full and overwhelming right now.
Dh gone, his parents visiting, fence delivery, prepping for my spring sale, baby goats due, the possibility of my parents visiting (I am excited about this! Birdy May bring his parents that weekend too!), starting the outdoor planting in earnest, prep for the school art show (May 1), my class project to do, the spring sale itself, and whew! April will be over in a blink. Then it will be May and time to wind the school year down.

The next week is almost the calm before the storm to get things prepped.

Anyway, I feel like I did well yesterday. I am skipping my yoga this morning and not planning anything but school and dropping off the recycling today. Trying to keep it light. I have put out all the spring rabbits all over the living/dining/kitchen area and will get out the rest of the Easter decorations and prep Bean's basket over the next week. I just need to buy his chocolate rabbit and some kind of candy to fill eggs. Just one small bag.

Great work of writing a list and making a plan, SubC! I keep making a list and not really getting anywhere with it.

These weeks are passing so quickly, it is amazing to me. I got an invitation for Easter brunch so I'm feeling pretty good about that.

I need help getting through my stuff. I have written a list, giving myself three options, and I haven't even started one of them. I wrote the list a few weeks ago. And now I can only remember two. One is to look through the two bins in my closet. Find out what's there and figure out if I can get rid of anything. My friend packed them so I have no idea. The other is to get rid of my mother's suitcase if possible. No idea what's in it. She bought this luggage probably forty to fifty years ago and no one uses luggage like this anymore. Very heavy. Definitely durable but really heavy. I've donated all but two pieces of her set. And oddly enough, at the subway the other day I saw a piece of this luggage in my mother's color and everything (a very odd color) and I thought, i bet that's one if the pieces I donated recently. Then I thought, maybe it's a sign from mom. Of course in real life my mother would be heartbroken if I got rid of anything so maybe it was just her saying hi. So the goal is to figure out what I have and to get rid of it. I need to make space.

Running into a hitch with giving the neighbor the car. As a first year driver, the cost of insurance is 3,000. Not kidding. I even checked with my agent. I don't want this girl to make a bad decision . I told her father that there will be no hard feelings but I need to know this weekend. I offered 500-600 toward the insurance but honestly this sounds like a terrible idea.

So that's where we stand. I can always sell it, although I have two other people to ask first to see if they want a car.

Please help me to get something done this weekend. Let's get the badger over to my house! Lila, the badger is something we used to joke about and I'm not sure who invented it, CM maybe? We'd talk about needing someone to badger us to get rid of stuff and so we'd ask to have the badger come by. Not sure if you were with us during the badger times

I'll need some tough love if anyone has any to spare.

So, it is mid/late afternoon.

I am eating a not super healthy snack chocolate candy mixed with raw walnuts) but I think I am doing pretty well today. I have tried to pace myself more.

When Dh left this morning, I thought "ok, he will be home in 13 hours." I made a list of 24 things I need to work on or finish, and I pledged to myself to work on at least one of them during each of those hours. So, I have done that. And I have finished 8 of them.

Of course I have been putting off "check kids work" and "plan for Friday classes" love teaching. Dislike prep and evaluation.

Counter of doom is better. Freezer is better. Stuff count is worse - update there next.

Good morning.

I will be home all day today again. Hopefully I can manage the afternoon. And also check all this student work that for some reason I am resistant to checking.

It is in the 20's this morning and won't break freezing until nearly lunch, so I intend to get the fire going. Not an outside day.

Lila, I hope you feel better soon. Stress is very hard on your immune system.

I have ordered some more toy animals for Bean and Birdy that were on sale. I had points that were about to expire. They are supposed to come today. I need to get Bean's Easter basket in order. I'm not doing one for Birdy this year as he is not old enough to notice. Bean remembers that last year there was a chocolate rabbit. A chocolate rabbit is a good tradition. It does not accumulate.

There were some little buck goats not too far from me that I liked. I was hoping to pick one up in the next two or three weeks. The seller told me he would let me know if one sold (I was having trouble choosing), but yesterday the listing was gone and when I enquired he told me he sold them all. I'm trying to just believe that it was for the best and things will work out as they should, Useless did cover at least three of my girls this year, so I can keep using him if I need to. I have to remind myself that much as I love baby goats, the point is milk. And my barn is really not ready for more animals.

lol, SubC, yeah, 15 minutes a day to deep clean?? That must be for people who have to stuff to move around first, or organize, or get rid of!

Well I got two days of work in and now I have a cold. Bad enough to keep me at home, so I am working from home today. I did a walmart order so I can have enough tissues and some OJ and soup. I should be cooking but I am so tired. Will get this work done though, and will enjoy Fri and Sat off. This is a very busy time of year at work because of Easter coming up, but there is nothing I can do about being sick again and missing things. I do hope I can get my system in order somehow so I don't keep catching every germ. I did get some probiotics. I have Hashimotos autoimmune thyroid disease which means I can't just go taking immune system boosters. I need to figure all that out.

Did not start a project.

Fell right back into the snacks and videos afternoon spiral. I am making the connection with the emptiness Lila, I think I feel lonely in the afternoons. I turn the videos on for voices and then I snack because I think it will "recharge" me. It doesn't.

I did finish drying all the laundry and putting away all but two loads. Also did chores and showered.

I am so thrown off, I even forgot it was the equinox today.

Midday update.

Did yoga and my chores, watered my plants, did a quick check on the garden beds, went to vote, unpacked and put away my suitcase, have washed - but not dried and put away- all the laundry from the trip, found one pair of jeans to pass on, ran the dishwasher (including dishes rinsed but not run before vacation), picked up the mail, and discovered that a mouse made a nest in the basement rafters while Mr. Kitty was locked outside for the week.

Now I am having a healthy lunch of things that needed to be used up and can start on a project.

Here is some humor for your day - YouTube thought I might want to watch a video where a woman promises that she will show me how to deep lean and organize my entire house this year in just 15 minutes a day.

Good morning!

Mr. Kitty missed us. He stayed inside all night. He doesn't meow, but this morning he followed me around making his little chirpy noise until I settled on the couch and started petting him. Usually if he has been in all night he wants to go out first thing.

I am tired, but I forced myself to get up half an hour after my usual time this morning so that I can go to bed tonight and tomorrow won't be so hard.

Today I only need to leave the house to vote. (Primaries - which decide most of my local races because democrats don't run, and a tax issue). I'll update later on what I get done.

CM, I hope you enjoy your warm day today. Maybe you can find one more thing to take with you when you make roommates drop run. Hopefully her decluttering will make more room to shift things around and help with your decluttering. Especially since I believe she still has belongings in your room?

Lila, sometimes change makes me feel sad. Even when it is good change. You are letting go of a lot in your life. Some of the change is better, but some involves letting go of things that were not bad things.

I'm sorry your home is stressful, but I'm glad you have more adults who clean up, even if the messes are bigger now. I think continuing to focus on your room as a sanctuary is a good thing.