Good Afternoon 🙂

Hi Anonymoniker 🙂
WTG! for telling that "friend" his services would no longer be required.
That's a good plan to move the cat food dishes and putting down the skunk trap where that skunk is used to getting food.
WOO HOO! that your weather proofing efforts have paid off!
Another song is "The Boxer" by Simon & Garfunkel.
(((HUG)))

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
You made me LOL about Miss Kitty airing out her privates! ;D
Not crude at all, just life with a cat. LOL
WAY TO GO!!! for all you have been doing!!!
Tomorrow if you start to get frustrated with that humidity
just position yourself to where the bay window dining area and hallway are all you see.
(((HUG)))

I washed dishes and cleaned the kitchen.
Been looking at this pile of castoff clothing and feeling extremely pleased with myself. ;D
Guess I should put it out in the car now.
The winds are starting to rage but overall it's been a lovely cool day with a chance of rain between the sunshine.

....i barely passed those tests....one was a government office, NOT a 'store', but it thought it was a store....but my phone is needing replacing, clearly!
I sent an email to the 'friend' that was gonna put the panels on & it was soooo easy! I made it like he was off the hook for a hard job, but i know in his mind it was a chance to milk me for more money, errands, meals etc. I feel a huge sense of relief & burden lifted! I told him i could not afford what he did to me with those signs. (which he dragged out, even tho i told him to quit doing extra stuff that i do not need, so he could pay his property taxes, and when i was desperately impoverished!) Whew!
The mini-skunk didnt like the rain in his ceiling nest last night, so he pushed a bunch more of insulation out into the hall & made all kinds of noise! I have a plan. Im gonna clear the porch table off, put the cat food up there & his peanut butter trap on the floor. That may work! I also have a plan how to catch my kitty with the tail thing, for a vet appointment. It may be cactus needles, or even a tumor. ~☆♡☆~

~♡~Happy Greetings to my internet loved ones!~♡~
Tillie, you are so right about everything you said! ~♡~
I spoke with my friend who helped me get my truck & he is really good at knowing how to 'let go' & other pisces issues...ha ha...and he helped me see it all in a different light & suggested i listen to the classic song, 'Teach Your Children'by CSN & Y, and it is so true! Ive heard that song a hundred times but never so deeply!~ I do feel i need to learn & practice letting go of it all~ My trailer is musty & filled with bugs after the storm, but all my weatherproofing held up! (Im gonna post smaller ones at a time, in case it wont work)

Hello everybody!

Well I did more than I felt like and I am grateful for that. I took my recycling out. I got my car, found a parking spot, and put the framed drawing in my car. I also took a big bag of donations, which had greatly increased as I cleaned out the linen closet Not completely organized but good enough! The donation bag has been dropped off, the drawing was taken to the shop, and I stopped for kitty food and a sandwich on my way home.

I changed my sheets, did two loads of laundry, put fresh linens on my bed and I put my white bedspread on the bed. I unloaded dishwasher and generally kept up here.

BF picking me up later so I can get my computer from the office. Frequently I prefer to not carry it home Friday nights because I like to be able to wander around and not worry about it.

Ok I will feed kitty and see if I can muster enough to do a little more around here. Tmr is our hot day, Tillie, and I so don't want to be hating my home. Today is hot but without humidity. Tmr will include the blood curdling humidity. Kitty is gearing up, I saw her airing out her privates earlier. Cracks me up. (Sorry to be crude).

Good Morning Everybody 🙂
Not yet noon here.

((((Anonymoniker-HUG-Tatoulia))))

Sweet little exchange there 😀

Anonymoniker 🙂
So sorry you are feeling like a Red Headed stepchild (((HUGS)))
The one best life lesson I have learned is to not depend on any other person to validate me, my thoughts, achievements, emotions or abilities.
And that no other person can make me happy.
Happiness comes from inside whether or not life's roadblocks are in my way.
We make the decision whether or not we will find happiness in the world we build around us, regardless of what others are doing.
My muther decided that she would never be happy.
Nothing I could ever do would please her because she made the decision that she would never be pleased.
Not even when I promised to hang her with a brand new rope. ;P

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
WAY TO GO!!! for having that wonderfully cleaned hallway and dining area!!! 😀
How wonderful and refreshing!
And now you also have a proper place to store your comforter! ;D

Hi Porter 🙂
HAPPY FATHER"S DAY (((HUG)))

Hi Subclinical 🙂
Hi Everybody else reading 😀

Been up and running since my feet hit the ground.
A million and one miscellaneous little tiny tasks to complete to bring the place back to "normal".
OH WOW! I just had a brilliantly orange Oriole in the tree outside my window!!! 😀
I am psyching myself up to do my plan for tomorrow.
It will be generally cleaning...
Clean bathroom, wash floors, dust, vacuum etc...

And here I was, thinking I hadn't ignored you but realizing that your perception was all that mattered! And I also thought, I'm glad we are all good enough friends to bring my things up.

So all around EXCEPT FOR YOUR PROBLEMS WITH THE SITE, a very positive experience for us both.

I'm leaving to get my car now. Need to take stuff out of my house. Donation and consignment.

Oh! I cleared off a linen closet shelf and got my freshly washed comforter a new home.

~♡~Tatoulia, you are such a dear & i know what you mean about preferring to apologize when one isnt in order, than not!~♡~Ive always preferred being in the wrong, cuz then at least i can apologize & try to rectify it, whereas if the other person is wrong, i cant fix it?~♡~The tiny blinking boxes are harder to see when im crying, so that is a factor, too!~♡~
~♡~Happy Fathers Day, Porter!~♡~Youre an amazing Dad!~♡~

Tatoulia, when i said i hadnt gotten any response from the problems with the wesite, i meant from the website people, in that thread, not you? It has been flickering with blocks missing, test after test for ages. I wrote about it several times, but never got any response from them. Its ok, anyway. Maybe its my phone. It just echoed what im going through with my family so i over-reacted. Im so sorry if you thought i meant you? You are a dear, wonderful friend & i love & appreciate you!!! ~♡~♡~♡~

Oh my goodness. Well clearly I misunderstood. I'd rather apologize when one is not in order than fail to. Anyway, please take my words to heart and know that you are an important part of my life.

You too, SubC. And Tillie. And CM. and friends here who've come and gone. I'm leaving a light on for each of you.

Tatoulia, i am totally confused by your apology? You have never made me feel bad, or less than?!? Im sorry if i seemed to imply that. Ive never even thought that at all. Youve been wonderful to me!

Coffee clinks Anony.

I am sorry I made you feel "less than". And I hope you will forgive me. That's it; plain and simple, no excuses.

The family situation is tough. I try so hard to be able to be comfortable with my choices. And I've met resistance from a lot of forces but in the end, I must be comfortable with me. Please try to do the same with yourself.

I believe strongly that each day is a new day. But for some people, it is not. Your family's refusal to see your growth must be spirit crushing. It breaks my heart that you are ignored and with God as my witness, I didn't realize I'm doing that to you too.

Please forgive me. You are a bright light and a dear soul.

~♡~Love to all!~♡~
SubC, im so sorry you feel depressed. That is a horrid feeling. Just know that that you are an amazing force on our planet & we love you!~♡~
Tatoulia, youve done so much for everyone & yourself! It is so inspirational!~♡~
Tillie, im glad youre just letting yourself rest aka procrastinate! With all ive gone through not being accepted by my family lately, i keep thinking what you have dealt with growing up & how much better i had it & that you still have thrived into such a beautiful being!~♡~
The long post i lost from not passing the tests kinda echoed losing the letter to my sister & no response from my problems with the site, like how its been with my family. Ive left plenty of posts about it. Everyone else's got responses. Im not gonna push anyone. It must just be a theme in this life. There is something im supposed to learn & i havent yet, but i will. Im barely hanging on. I know that sounds overly dramatic, but often it does seem to work that way. ~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~

That is hard decision making, Tillie, or maybe I should say, advanced decision making. Those are the skills I'm developing right now. I'll use the Ho Hum Standard to help me along!

I knew the table would be bad and it's actually hideous. I've put together a lot of furniture for my brother over the years, IKEA mainly, until I bought him furniture from a furniture store. This will be fine until I find something. It is as extremely inexpensive and it was from amazon so free shipping. I know the lamps aren't quite right but my goodness they are beautiful. They look very nice as I glance down the hallway and see my dining area with the beautiful drapes.

I can live with this for now as it really looks nice.

I have much more to do here. I would so love to start a laundry now but whether it's psychological or something else, it will stop me from doing other stuff. It's as though my brain says, hey good job on the laundry accomplishment and then I don't make any progress anywhere else.

It is lovely having the hallway swept and mopped.

Hi Tatoulia 🙂

WAY TO GO! for that one purse purge! 😀
So sorry that table is hideous. 🙁

The furniture we have to assemble ourselves usually isn't the greatest.

Keep looking for the perfect table and perfect lamps.
It may take a very long time to find them so be patient. (((HUG)))

Great that you decided on another painting to consign. 😉

I'm still procrastinating on the pantry so today I did a vicious purge on my clothing.
Have a heap of stuff that can go.
So tired of these things.
They have been in my wardrobe for way too many years.
Yes, I do wear them. Maybe just out of habit, I dunno.
But I still have enough clothes. Newer, not so Ho-Hum.
;P

Memories of the sandwich are killing me too, Tillie. So delicious.

Well I just spent over an hour putting the table together and it is hideous. Really terrible. But I forged ahead and I swept and cleaned the hallway floor and I put the table there. We went antiquing today and I found two beautiful lamps. They are absolutely beautiful. They do have the candlesticks up top, Tillie. The shades (appropriate for the lamps) are larger than I had anticipated. They are ivory shantung silk. They are only 24" high. I really need closer to 32". They are silver plated if you can believe it. BF said he'll take them if I decide they don't work.

I really need to find a beautiful, thin console table. I did see one today that was very nice and had a few thoughts my drawers but at 14" wife, it was too wide. I'll find something. For now, kitty and I will get used to this development. I haven't hung the etching yet. Too tired and I'll likely need help.

I took the box from the table and used part of it to box up a painting I don't want. I'll take to consignor tomorrow or at least to car.

I'm hungry, tired and sweaty. I'll go take care of that.

Tillie I got rid of one purse. The box of purses only had two in it. Then I cleaned out two purses and I'll put in there. I have to vacuum one first.

Good Morning Everyone 🙂
"Clink!"

Anonymoniker
I have no problems with the squares.
Sometimes I don't have to do the test for my post to post.
Since others here don't have the same problems as you have I do believe it's a malfunction on your end.
(((HUGS)))

Hi Subclinical 🙂
Take care of yourself and do whatever you need to do to help yourself.
The worst thing a person with depression can do is to ignore it. ((((HUGS))))

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
Good luck making progress finding places to put stuff away.
You're killing me with the in-depth description of that Po'boy! ;D
Wishing you strength and perseverance getting your home to a state where you are not hot and frazzled by the level of openness and cleanliness. (((HUGS)))

Nice quiet cool morning.
Yesterday while procrastinating doing the pantry cleaning I did a lot of straightening in my closet.
Have a pile of donation made up of jeans & sheets.
That tiny closet is looking so neat and tidy!!!

SubC, we cross-posted.

I think your plan is a good one. Depression is not to be trifled with. Your husband is so dear. The shower and the ride! Very sweet and very loving. Reading your description of your husband's and your mother's loving care took me back to being a child, and having my mother take care of me. just like that, I was in my bedroom in Illinois. You have a wonderful way with words.

If you need anything at all, you know we are here. And brighter days are ahead.

Anony I also use my phone. I do get the squares with no issues. Not all of my posts require verification. Could you email Cory? I once called and got him on the phone! I tried not to fan girl but it was tough. Please call him or email him. He wants us all to have access.

Tillie the shrimp po' boy was so yummy. It was large grilled shrimp, big beautiful tomato slices, romaine lettuce, lemon wedges and some sort of tomato mayo on the Portuguese roll. So good. Grilled to order. So delicious. Come to Boston and it's my treat!

Up early. Definitely need to make space today. I need to find a way to force myself to do something.

Monday will be 99 and you know how I hate a dirty house in the heat. I don't have much to put away but until I make the space, it's all here and it's all too much.

Sometimes I get the test and it is fine, sometimes I get no test at all. Rarely I have your to it twice. I am on an iPad.

I lost yesterday to depression.

Dh came home, pulled me out of bed, made me take a shower and eat some healthy food, and took me for a drive in the fresh air.

I slept ten hours. I am feeling better this morning, but very raw and fragile. My goal for today is not to set any. I am going to do my chores (critters just be fed, watered, and milked) and then I am going to just let everything else hold. The dishes and laundry will get worse. It's ok.

If I feel like doing something, I will, but I am working really hard to remind myself that I am sick. And when I was a kid and I was really sick, my mom would put me to bed and bring me food and only let me have quiet toys or crafts or books if I got bored, and I would get better.

So now, I need to do that for me. I don't have to stay in bed, but I do need to rest. Dh had to leave at 7:30. He left me with a cup of coffee. He promised to be home by 2.

Since ive gotten no response in the thread for problems with the site, do yall have to do the test with each post of checking boxes that have the signs, or bridges, or store fronts, etc.? If so, do they blink, or have squares missing, or change as youre checking them?

~Good early morning!~
This is my 3d try. Maybe its my phone. Im still awake from everything on my mind.
~♡~Love to All!~♡~

Oooooooohhhhh
I want a shrimp Po'boy too!!!

YEA! & WOOHOO! for treating yourself to a proper sit down with a placemat! ;D
Good luck putting the hallway table together.
That arrangement sounds very nice, the etching, the table and two tall skinny lamps.
In my mind I am picturing the lamps looking like tall taper candles, with shades at the tops.

I kept using my Spring weight robe because sometimes in the mornings it was down in the 40s.
But now it shouldn't get below 50 at most.
Been another Red Flag Wildfire alert day.
No humidity, dry brush and the winds are now picking up.
Steven came home all excited because he saw somewhere that there will be lots of estate sales and yard sales tomorrow.
Tesla has laid off a whole lot of employees and the people will all be moving back to their home states, so they are selling everything.
Steven asked me if I wanted to go to a yard sale tomorrow down the road from here.
I just said "No". >:(

Tillie you are doing great! Congratulations! I walked home from work and went straight to mom's to drop off some fresh milk and cat food. Then I stopped at a little place and ordered the grilled shrimp po' boy and it was out of this world! So delicious! I put out a placemat and ate like a civilized person.

My hallway table I ordered has arrived. Very hard to find a console table only 8" wide, so it's a cheap little thing I have to put together myself. But I know what I need to put over it (a large etching that was my parents') and I've been instructed as to what types of lamps to buy. I need two tall skinny lamps. BF and I will go to a couple of antiques/consignment places tmr.

Anony I am glad you are back! Even for a minute!

I was early at office again today so I left around 5.

Humidity sneaking in here although still officially cool.

I already put away my winter robes (One was washed and donated) I do have a pair of slippers to include in a wash. I am too tired to do anything tonight so I've decided when I feel that way, the solution is to do laundry. This why when I'm not too tired, I don't spend my energy on laundry.

OK
Went and looked at the pantry...
Removed the bead curtain from the doorway.
I made this bead curtain with pretty and semiprecious stone beads.
Have that safely stowed away in my room.
Decided to scoop litter boxes and sweep, so I did that.
Then I decided the carpet could use some vacuuming, so I vacuumed.
Then I saw that lots is getting tracked out from Stevens room.
So, I went in there and used his Dyson vacuum to vacuum the area near the door.
That Dyson does a terrible job but I destroyed 5 previous vacuums using my vacuums on his bedroom floor, so I refuse to use my vacuum in there.
Then I went out in my garden/yard area and just wandered around looking at things and sniffing the Honeysuckle.
Watched the pi$$ ants for a while to see what they were doing.
Then I noticed my finger nails were too long and shabby looking, so I sat down and cut & shaped them.
Then it was noon so I decided to eat.
Decided to swap out my Springtime robe for my Summer weight robe.
Then figured I would swap out my house slippers too.
Had to clean the slippers before I stored them away, did that.
Then decided to make another honeycomb beeswax candle using a new design I learned from a Youtube video the other day.
Anyways...
I have been very busy while I have been procrastinating on starting the pantry project. ;P

Good Morning Everyone 🙂
"Clink!"

Hi Subclinical 🙂
YEA!

YEA!!! Anonymoniker!!! 😀

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
WTG! for putting away shoes off the floor!
Some advice about using the spray foam insulating stuff...
Have some acetone nail polish remover on hand.
It dissolves and helps remove the stuff from hands & feet and step ladder handles.
Wear a smock to protect your clothes, just in case.
Wear rubber gloves & eye glasses.
But really, that stuff works GREAT. ;D

Staying hydrated truly does help keep you more energized and thinking straight.
A lot of times when people think they are hungry they are actually just thirsty.

Going to be another hot day today but supposed to be a bit cooler this weekend.
Trying to decide what to do today. There are too many things that I could be doing.
Pantry is dusty. It's a big job so I think I will break it down into smaller bite size pieces.
Wash dust off of maybe half the shelves and contents, reline with fresh shelf liner.
See if I'm up to doing more in there later.
Everything in this house gets so dusty all the time.
Except in the Winter when the ground is covered in snow. ;P

Ok, its working, but i just need to get a better magnifying glass.....~♡~♡~♡~

.....it didnt flicker at all that time, plus all the squares showed up AND the verify button! YEA! Maybe i was heard & they did fix it?! 😀

~♡~Love to all!~♡~
The site seems different, so maybe they did try to fix that anti-spamming thing, but im needing a new phone cuz other things arent working on it, so once i replace it ill see what happens. So much is going on, but im not gonna write it all out again cuz it may be a waste again depending on that test to see if im a spammer or robot or whatever.
~♡~I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH!~♡~

Good morning!!!!

Great work, SubC! Tillie I am thrilled you used that expanding foam! I have an area where I need to use it. I'll look for it in the hardware store!

Mar! Drink plenty of fluids and eat well! We will support you! Getting the trash and recycling out is important! You can tell yourself how many bags you've gotten out, which is important because sometimes it feels like the place looks no different do you can remind yourself, hey, but there's six bags less here!

The fluids are important. I am a big believer that water makes things go so much easier.

Well I'm trying for another early day at work! Thanks for the new thread!

I've been putting my shoes away (floor work). I need to press through the remaining clutter this weekend. With your help, and a large glass of water, I can do this.

Hello Anony!

I found you!