| Tillie | Posted: 06 April 2020 - 10:16 PM |
Hey Lately some of the sentences were incomplete and then visible and so forth and so on. To not offend anybody with Triskaidekaphobia I made this phase 14. See you soon ð | |
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| Tillie | Posted: 14 September 2020 - 12:40 AM |
Finished the last little bit of my chocolate icecream. Did good today with standing up straight and walking around. All 4 cats have gotten fed and watered daily. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 13 September 2020 - 05:33 PM |
Hi Tatoulia YEA! for a nice clear dining table! Happy you got to visit with little sister Kitty How are you doing now that the dollhouse furniture is mailed? YEA! for doing the laundry and are putting it away! Steven got up about noon today. Did he ask me if I need anything, knowing I have been incapacitated for a long time? | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 13 September 2020 - 03:12 PM |
Tillie, We cross-posted! CM it does become easier. You are living it. You are doing great. Still hard decisions in front of you but still easier than it ever has been before ! I love RUTHLESS. | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 13 September 2020 - 03:10 PM |
CM! I am enjoying your storage purge as much as I enjoyed my own! You are amazing! You are motivating me! I am so excited. For you and for me! Yay for the class lesson and headache being gone, SubC. Tillie I'm so sorry about your back. Ok I never finished clearing off my dining room table and it really bothers me. When I use it for paperwork, I become distracted and start writing postcards. It is the first thing I see when I get home and the piles are discouraging. I'd gotten it down to about 1/3. So I took the remaining 1/3 off and put on coffee table. The dining table looks beautiful. Yesterday I dropped a tin full of little ceramic things that I didn't know what to do with. They broke. They are in the garbage. I mailed off the dollhouse furniture. I also got to see mom last night. I had done some shopping for her and when I got there I was waved upstairs. Good to see mom and of course that cat. I love that cat. Mom ate her dinner while I was there. So it was good all around. I slept til nearly one today. Cooler weather with no humidity. I love it. I did three loads of laundry yesterday and I'm folding it and putting it away now. It's 4 PM. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 13 September 2020 - 02:55 PM |
WOOHOO! Yeah, some decisions are easier to make. Just ask Tatoulia. Subclinical has also let go of long saved items she thought she would use someday. | |
| CriticalMass | Posted: 13 September 2020 - 02:37 PM |
Thanks for the nice feedback! Yesterday was a great day. So many spider carcasses, thoughð·ïļðļïļ- plus a few live 8-leggers scuttling around. ðą It's nice to think that I'm making fewer places for them to hide now. I have cleaning supplies over in the storage so there's a broom to get the webs and dust and leaves that blow in, etc. I truly believe I am experiencing a combination of a mental shift and divine inspiration going on here. I'm rather blown away, actually. All I have to do is show up and cooperate with it. There will be harder things - it's one thing to yank out a chair that takes up about 4 cubic feet. It may be way harder to deal with 4 small stuffed animals or 4 greeting cards. And to do it over and over until all the cubic feet of that sort of thing is dealt with and most of it gone. All such things I will face eventually. And I remember I've gone through and gotten rid of lots of boxes and bags of papers already in this effort since whenever. No matter what, I will have hope. And I will have you wonderful ladies! So I'm not going to let it scare me.ðŧ I promise. Tomorrow I get to take the stuff away! ð Woohoo!ðððĨ | |
| Tillie | Posted: 13 September 2020 - 12:13 PM |
Hi Subclinical YEA! for a lovely time with Bean! Good luck with doing odds&ends bits&pieces today. Good getting ahead on XMas presents. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 13 September 2020 - 10:58 AM |
Wow CM! That is an amazing purge! I hope you have a sense of increased space to enjoy. You seem to have been gaining a lot of useful insight lately. Tillie, we're glad you are too smart to believe Steven. It saves a lot of disappointment. We had a lovely time with Bean yesterday - and yes, I took pictures. ðĪĐ I did pretty well on the "recovery" yesterday. I still feel overwhelmed, but not as badly. There was a lot of cooking and eating, so my kitchen and scullery are buried again. Today I think I will be doing odds and ends. I ordered a Christmas gift for one of the kids (starting early to spread it out and take advantage of sales.) Also because I expect to be 90% online this year and may have to ship to ds. I don't know if we'll be able to see him. More dishes, more laundry, more tomatoes, class postings, maybe first day plans... We'll see where I end up. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 13 September 2020 - 10:53 AM |
Good Morning Everybody WAY TO GO! CriticalMass!!! That's a FANTASTIC! start on taming the storage! Great combination with you working with Badger and leaving Ruth at home. ;D Your thought processes are great in deciphering the "whys" as to what you have. I have found that the universe does provide. Keep the image of a smaller well organized storage unit for all your necessary items. (((HUG))) The money pit van was deceptive in how high maintenance it really was because it slowly nickeled & dimed you to pay to keep it running. I must have pushed it too far yesterday cause my back is really achy again. Steven finally came in from the garage 10:45pm last night for the first time since returning from the hospital. That, along with the mouse poop everywhere makes it a hazmat zone. The wildfire smoke is "moderate" this morning and it should warm up into the 90s by afternoon. Plan today is to baby my back until time to water my garden plants this evening. | |
| CriticalMass | Posted: 12 September 2020 - 11:45 PM |
A pleasant day here, warmer and sunny. ð I'm glad we got the rain but the sudden bout of cloudy and chilly weather had gotten me down. And now it looks as though we won't have 90s for awhile or until next year. Kansas is fickle though, so I never make absolute statements! But today was pretty ideal. No news yet on family. My roommate had given me another small wire shelf unit she was no longer using, so I went to take it over to the storage unit where it can replace one of the several rickety plastic ones. And while I was there, I sort of lost my mind. ððð But in a good way. I went crazy pulling stuff out and now the following is in my van awaiting donation on Monday: __________ Three school chairs my parish got rid of some years back - sturdy but worn and splintery; I don't want to put in a bunch of work to fix them up. Two wire milk crates Two large empty non-transparent plastic tubs A large whiteboard I don't need My silk flower pick machine - I don't use it anymore Various other containers, old Tupperware Posters and cheap framed prints of Tuscany scenes which I'd put up at my parents' house - not part of my new minimalist plan, let somebody else enjoy them Misc. like notebooks, household whatzits So yes, SubC, Badger came.ðĶĄ I left Ruth at home though. So I was... wait for it... RUTHLESS! ðĪ·ââïļ In addition to extricating donations, I was moving several shelf units to better positions and starting to clear space. Some items I ran out of time to sort today had to go back in "momentarily," so the front looks cluttered, but those items will soon be dealt with. I'm finding that apparently I've kept more things that are bulky, blah, and not worth paying to store than I realized. I think I know now why this happened. I believe moving so many times and having just so much to deal with sort of exhausted my capacity to process and look at things with a clear eye. Maybe sheer fatigue played a part - like, if it fit into storage at some point and I was tired of lifting stuff, I didn't question it. And of course I had NO IDEA that I would end up staying even one year, let alone five, when I first moved in with the current roommate. I honestly thought I'd be figuring out a way to get back out on my own as soon as possible and would need some of those old chairs, etc. We had originally said a couple of months! But so much happened, and thanks to the money pit red van, my small reserve of $1.5k was drained upon my arrival here. As was the $3k inheritance I got from my aunt later that year. That stupid old van... I can't believe how much I poured into that pile of junk. But it wasn't all at one time, of course. Ah well. Water under the bridge. Right now I'm going to get this "stuff" situation dealt with, and that's what's important. Outlast the pandemic, help my roommate get through her health stuff, then see if I can find a way to bring in money. It appears, barring any drastic events, there is a sequence that will unfold so that I'll focus on one big project, segue into the one after it, then the one after that, etc. ðĢïļ And when I get my own place, I can buy some not expensive, but nice new chairs or whatever else I need! It's even possible that this effort could result in being able to step down to a smaller storage unit. But one thing at a time. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 12 September 2020 - 02:05 PM |
Hi ð YEA! Happy your headache has gone Subclinical ð WTG! doing laundry!!! ;D Fantastic getting the class fully written up and posted. Hi Tatoulia So happy you are well rested and relaxed. ð Well, soon as he got up off the floor yesterday he went out into the garage. When he was in the hospital he said he would come home and help me with things I am struggling with. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 12 September 2020 - 12:24 PM |
Good afternoon! It's ok tatoulia, my headache is gone. Dh massaged my neck and I went outside in the humidity. I'm glad you are well rested! Tillie, Dh back is still bothering him, but he's taking it easy. No heavy lifting. Bean and family will be here a little later and he's going to just hold Bean on the couch. He's gotten a lot of desk/phone/paperwork things taken care of and put in order the last few weeks! I'm glad your back is doing better! I did my first laundry load and I am going to hang it. I also got one of my 11 courses fully written up and posted (the first day lesson plan is still a bit vague). It was one of the three hard ones, so that makes me feel better. I'll finish another hard one this weekend. I thought they had to be done the 15th, but I actually have to the 18th, so that is better. Dishwasher is running too. | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 12 September 2020 - 11:46 AM |
Quick drive by. Went to bed at 7PM up today at 11:30. So relaxed. Tillie: ugh and oh no. And head in the litter box is particularly funny. You earned that moment: don't hide in shame! Cm you are my hero! Tough decisions executed perfectly! Fun to see the candles and yes, too much maintenance. And someone at the thrift shop will be very excited! SubC. I'm worried about your headache! Ok off to do some things today. Feeling pretty good right now. In my favorite pjs and everything. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 12 September 2020 - 10:53 AM |
Good Morning Everybody Hi Subclinical YEA! the soap has arrived! So sorry about that headache. Bean is coming to visit! I have always found that doing the usual routine household chores helps me to feel more in control and hope it works for you too. How is your Dh's back doing? My back is doing better so far today. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 12 September 2020 - 07:22 AM |
Tillie, I don't think that makes you a horrible person. CM, those were very cute. Good job being brave and passing them on! I'm sorry for the emotional struggles you are facing. These things are so exhausting. Definitely treat yourself to plenty of dark chocolate. Tatoulia, did you get the trash out? I'm glad everyone likes my future rose. I had a good day with Bean yesterday, but I did not get much planning done. I went to sleep with a headache last night, and woke up with one this morning. Don't worry, I'm not sick, it's sinus or tension. It's centered under my right eye and gets a little better when I take my glasses off. Unfortunately I'm pretty much blind without my glasses (Black Mr. kitty is sitting next to me on a dark brown couch. When the glasses come off, Mr. kitty blurs to invisibility) My laundry soap arrived as promised, so I hope to do laundry today. Dd is bringing Bean to see Dh this afternoon. They will either come mid afternoon accompanied by daddy and dog, or early lunchtime and the other two I had "things go wrong and get out of control" school dreams again last night. Today's theme is "recovery" I am going to try to focus on doing the things I need to do to feel less overwhelmed. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 12 September 2020 - 12:38 AM |
I must be a terrible person... Every time I picture him laying there on his back on the floor with his head in the cat's litter box I chuckle. ð | |
| Tillie | Posted: 11 September 2020 - 10:28 PM |
CriticalMass' three candle pics bring back lovely memories. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 11 September 2020 - 05:52 PM |
Hi CriticalMass Yes, find those 80% dark chocolate bars. Do a drive-by whenever you get the chance to let us know you are doing ok.ð | |
| Tillie | Posted: 11 September 2020 - 05:43 PM |
Well... He came inside, dropped his plastic bag of hospital "goodies' on the counter and went into the bathroom to pee. Finished peeing then fell out the bathroom door landing on his back with his head in the litter box. Said he slipped. I went out into the carport and extricated his walker from some clutter and set it on the porch. When he was standing upright again he went out into his beloved garage. Scooter is terrified again. | |
| CriticalMass | Posted: 11 September 2020 - 05:35 PM |
Somehow I double posted my own post! ðĪŠ | |
| CriticalMass | Posted: 11 September 2020 - 05:34 PM |
Never Forget 9/11 ðŊïļ I know none of us will... My aunt was rehospitalized and is now being moved to hospice.ððĨ Just now texted my girlfriend about the other friend who had been in the hospital here; that friend returned to her care facility but the facility has a covid outbreak. ð° In more everyday news, I did get the Gurley candles and a few other items to the thrift shop. Pics of the candles on IG. Storage unit plans both excite and terrify me. That is normal, though. I've been stressed and depressed about lots of things, from 9/11 to grey weather to trying to figure out what all's going to happen to loved ones and when. Wish I could get my oil changed. Texted mechanic guy again. If I don't hear soon, I am going to pursue other avenues, perhaps some guy at my church, I can ask around and explain my situation. Another time I miss my dad and/or wish I had a brother or husband good with cars. Knowing that it will probably be soon for my aunt will mean that I'll know when the funeral will be. And that gives a priority then other lesser things will be arranged around it. It will work out. The emotional stress is going to be rough but I'll do the best I can with it. We all know how this year depletes a person and how important it is to do what we can for basic self care. I'm even looking up online how to reduce cortisol because I imagine there are 4-5 gallons of it circulating in my bloodstream at any given time. One thing I saw was that dark chocolate helps. So make sure and eat dark chocolate if you can get some! I hadn't gotten round to mentioning it but my roommate's brother and sister in law are going to come again in October to do repair help or yard work or whatever like they did in August. So I will have to not bring stuff back inside the house - but I didn't want to do that anyway. And perhaps by then if I can work steadily the storage unit will be able to hold the project stuff. And I still do plan to reduce the amount of stash and if things are neat and organized I'll be able to make what I do keep into finished product. So anyway, be thinking of me and I'll be thinking of you, and you'll know if I am not posting at times it'd be because a lot might be happening but then I'll get back when I can. Or sometimes I end up posting more when a lot is going on. Whichever way it goes, impossible to predict. So take care and be safe. P.S. SubC - I looked up your Blue Girl rosebush - gorgeous! Never Forget 9/11 ðŊïļ I know none of us will... My aunt was rehospitalized and is now being moved to hospice.ððĨ Just now texted my girlfriend about the other friend who had been in the hospital here; that friend returned to her care facility but the facility has a covid outbreak. ð° In more everyday news, I did get the Gurley candles and a few other items to the thrift shop. Pics of the candles on IG. Storage unit plans both excite and terrify me. That is normal, though. I've been stressed and depressed about lots of things, from 9/11 to grey weather to trying to figure out what all's going to happen to loved ones and when. Wish I could get my oil changed. Texted mechanic guy again. If I don't hear soon, I am going to pursue other avenues, perhaps some guy at my church, I can ask around and explain my situation. Another time I miss my dad and/or wish I had a brother or husband good with cars. Knowing that it will probably be soon for my aunt will mean that I'll know when the funeral will be. And that gives a priority then other lesser things will be arranged around it. It will work out. The emotional stress is going to be rough but I'll do the best I can with it. We all know how this year depletes a person and how important it is to do what we can for basic self care. I'm even looking up online how to reduce cortisol because I imagine there are 4-5 gallons of it circulating in my bloodstream at any given time. One thing I saw was that dark chocolate helps. So make sure and eat dark chocolate if you can get some! I hadn't gotten round to mentioning it but my roommate's brother and sister in law are going to come again in October to do repair help or yard work or whatever like they did in August. So I will have to not bring stuff back inside the house - but I didn't want to do that anyway. And perhaps by then if I can work steadily the storage unit will be able to hold the project stuff. And I still do plan to reduce the amount of stash and if things are neat and organized I'll be able to make what I do keep into finished product. So anyway, be thinking of me and I'll be thinking of you, and you'll know if I am not posting at times it'd be because a lot might be happening but then I'll get back when I can. Or sometimes I end up posting more when a lot is going on. Whichever way it goes, impossible to predict. So take care and be safe. P.S. SubC - I looked up your Blue Girl rosebush - gorgeous! My aunt was rehospitalized and is now being moved to hospice.ððĨ Just now texted my girlfriend about the other friend who had been in the hospital here; that friend returned to her care facility but the facility has a covid outbreak. ð° In more everyday news, I did get the Gurley candles and a few other items to the thrift shop. Pics of the candles on IG. Storage unit plans both excite and terrify me. That is normal, though. I've been stressed and depressed about lots of things, from 9/11 to grey weather to trying to figure out what all's going to happen to loved ones and when. Wish I could get my oil changed. Texted mechanic guy again. If I don't hear soon, I am going to pursue other avenues, perhaps some guy at my church, I can ask around and explain my situation. Another time I miss my dad and/or wish I had a brother or husband good with cars. Knowing that it will probably be soon for my aunt will mean that I'll know when the funeral will be. And that gives a priority then other lesser things will be arranged around it. It will work out. The emotional stress is going to be rough but I'll do the best I can with it. We all know how this year depletes a person and how important it is to do what we can for basic self care. I'm even looking up online how to reduce cortisol because I imagine there are 4-5 gallons of it circulating in my bloodstream at any given time. One thing I saw was that dark chocolate helps. So make sure and eat dark chocolate if you can get some! I hadn't gotten round to mentioning it but my roommate's brother and sister in law are going to come again in October to do repair help or yard work or whatever like they did in August. So I will have to not bring stuff back inside the house - but I didn't want to do that anyway. And perhaps by then if I can work steadily the storage unit will be able to hold the project stuff. And I still do plan to reduce the amount of stash and if things are neat and organized I'll be able to make what I do keep into finished product. So anyway, be thinking of me and I'll be thinking of you, and you'll know if I am not posting at times it'd be because a lot might be happening but then I'll get back when I can. Or sometimes I end up posting more when a lot is going on. Whichever way it goes, impossible to predict. So take care and be safe. P.S. SubC - I looked up your Blue Girl rosebush - gorgeous! ðĪðððđðððĪ | |
| Tillie | Posted: 11 September 2020 - 11:58 AM |
Good Morning Everyone Hi Tatoulia Hope you managed to get the trash out this morning. Boston is probably having some sort of remembrance ceremony today. Hi Subclinical Seems like you got a good start on the classroom. Fingers crossed the soap comes today XXX But today is Bean day!!!! ð I used to have a nice heating pad but Steven took it a long time ago and I have not seen it since. In spite of him I was able to get some good restful sleep last night. My plan for today is to keep resting with the heated throw and do tiny tasks to keep things functioning in the house. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 11 September 2020 - 05:46 AM |
Add me to the keep Steven longer bandwagon! Tatoulia, some says are like that. It's ok. You are often too hard on yourself. The rose will be blue girl - hybrid tea. It has been one of my favorites since I was a kid. I've never been able to have a fancy rose because they are too demanding, but if I can't keep one alive In a sheltered sunny corner six feet from where I use the hose twice a day (often to rinse manure off of things - the grass is rich) then I will give up. Yesterday's them of "order" went pretty well. There is less stuff in my house and studio because I dropped the recycling and took some things to school, but I also brought some things home from school (some just to wash) so my car is almost half as full as when I left. I salvaged a shelf thing from the school trash that I will have to explain later. I'm not sure if I feel better about my classroom or not. I did very little and have to go back, but I have a clear idea of what I have to work with. There is also a lot to keep up with here! Tomatoes, dishes, critters... and I need my laundry soap! It is supposed to come today. The theme for today is "planning". But more later, I'm off to see Bean. | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 10 September 2020 - 05:59 PM |
Oh Tillie. What a mess. I'm so sorry. I do hope they'll keep him longer. I have zero to show for myself. My house is a mess. But my bed is made. And I just showered. It's raining and very humid. I'm going to have to gather up my garbage tonight and hope I get up early enough to take it out in the AM. I have to go feed the Neighbor's cats soon, which is pretty funny because I'm down to my last can here for my baby. I don't think she'll like the extra fancy stuff that my neighbor feed his cats so I'm going to have to get more cat food in the AM. I took some sandwiches to BF. And I mailed my stock check. I went to the PO and handed it to the clerk. And I bought the one sheet of postcard stamps she has. I have to pull everything together. Will eat the second half of my sandwich then head downstairs. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 10 September 2020 - 03:49 PM |
Good Afternoon Hi everyone He was mentally alert. He has accepted the fact that Monday he had an episode even though he can't remember. Told him about my back issue and that he cannot come home until he is able to care for himself, no more "episodes" since I can barely manage taking care of me & the cats. Was very cool earlier and now it's pleasantly warm but not hot. ð A&E on Youtube put up a short video of Cory talking about their protective gear and sanitizing products. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 10 September 2020 - 10:56 AM |
Good Morning Everybody Hi Subclinical Hope your Dh's back gets better soon, like right now. OK what color rose? Wishing you the most positive day at the school. Nothing new here to report. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 10 September 2020 - 05:48 AM |
Coffee clinks! I had a lovely day with Bean yesterday. He was awake and alert most of the time. He is babbling a bit now and likes to be put down under his baby gym and wave at his toys. He is also showing lots of interest in the things around him. Tillie, I am so sorry about your back injury! Dh's has really derailed his life. He goes in for an MRI today. It has to be so much worse with no one to help you with things. Crow away on your progress! We are always inspired by you. Tatoulia, great job on boundaries! And his terrific that you "found" all the money for your investment! I'm glad the printer is working out. CM, being "done" with stuff haunting you is a great breakthrough! I think Badger is looking forward to spending the nice weather at the storage unit with you. Let us know if he gets a ride along to donate your candles.ðĶĄð I'm sorry your relatives are facing so many challenges. I know exactly what rose I want, so I will prepare it's bed and then wait until I can get it. This is probably better, because I enjoy looking forward to things, and the soil will be better prepared to give the rose a good start. I am attempting to put my life back in "school mode". The theme for today is "order" With activities focusing on large motor skills. - lol! Cleaning out stalls, unloading the feed from my car and loading up recycling and items that need to be at school, going to my classroom and unloading the car and arranging furniture... I MUST make myself go today! I also need to set aside an hour "planning period" to work on some of my classes. Hopefully going in to the building will inspire me. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 09 September 2020 - 10:53 PM |
Hi Everybody Hi Tatoulia WTG! for laundry and sleeping in your fresh clean bed tonight! So glad we found a solution you can live with concerning the printer. ð I am all ready for bed. | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 09 September 2020 - 10:13 PM |
CM! You have turned a corner and I'm so happy for you! Yikes with the temp drop. Very bizarre and unnerving. I'm sorry about your aunt and uncle. It's hard. Tillie I'm glad you are feeling a bit of relief. WTG for clean kitchen! When my mother could no longer bend downs I bought a small table, probably an end table at some point, which she serves the cat food on. I got this when she still had her old cat, and her new cat uses it now, it gives mom a fighting chance to get the food to the kitty and to make sure there's water for her. I ended up doing three loads of laundry. PJs, cat stuff and then skirts and dresses that I hang to dry. I'll do towels and sheets tomorrow or Friday. I got my sheets changed. I fell asleep during my restorative yoga class. The last thing I remember is putting the blister under my hips. I'm taking care of neighbor's cats. They are so sweet. Okay off to bed in my nice clean bed! PS I've been putting the printer back so that's worked out to my favor. So glad not to have to see it. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 09 September 2020 - 04:48 PM |
Good Afternoon Everyone Hi CriticalMass I am very encouraged that when the weather is right you WILL get into that storage and get it organized. ð Very sorry your Aunt and Uncle are so frail. That little light brown Bunny sitting up is just too precious. ð Hi Tatoulia WTG! for cashing in the coin and putting the money to good use for your future! I heard that in cities the homeless/vagrant people are a great reservoir for the virus. When I got up this morning I started doing very gentle movements. ð Have to crow! The carpet is still a mess but I won't risk vacuuming today. I can get into a comfortable position to sleep, on my side with a pillow between my knees. I think a day or two longer with gentle movements and resting it it will be much better. | |