| Tillie | Posted: 27 January 2019 - 09:48 AM |
Due to Godzilla Badger attack... LOL 😀 | |
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| Tatoulia | Posted: 01 September 2019 - 08:54 AM |
Oh Tillie! I am so sorry! That is true despair, being up in the dead of night with really awful thoughts. I'm so sorry. SubC I'm excited about the booth and your sales. I would so love to see your work. I'm excited for you. Your family is so sweet. I bet that was a fun evening. You have a lot this week! I know when I have too many evenings scheduled that I start to feel like I can't breathe, so I try not to do that. One thing that has eased up my life and breathing room is ending that ridiculous obligation of spending each Saturday with my brother. I have time and space to breathe! CM! You were sound asleep! My goodness! Grateful you didn't hit your head! Sounds like you had a fun time at the doll show! I go to a lot of lectures on various topics out of the pure enjoyment of the learning. I miss going to little fairs and lectures with my mom. I still do many of these things, but I miss doing with mom. Mom's cat is working on it. She hides a lot but is eating and mom sees her occasionally. She's such a pretty little one. I washed mom's dishes and brought them back to her last night. I can't believe I hadn't thought of this earlier. And now we know they are really clean. I say that because an exhausted 90 year old with poor vision cannot get the same results as a brand new dishwasher. I then wrapped her dishes in a clean tea towel, and brought them back. It's going to be a good system for us. I have a trip planned in mid September and already I'm trying to back out of it. I don't know why I do this. This has been my behavior patterns for decades. I've rented a car for it and I will have a wonderful, relaxing, much needed get-away. I have a jigsaw puzzle from the Museum of Fine Arts and two Sunday NY Times crossword puzzles so essentially I'm ready to go. I can have BF feed the cat on the Saturday and Sunday I'm gone and I'll feed her the Friday that I leave and of course the Monday I come back. I have the rental til Tuesday and I also took Tuesday off in case I decide to stay an extra day. I'd be happiest if BF just decided to stay here those nights but I won't push him. I'll throw it out there and see if it sticks There's a badger in my closet and I'll go address it. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 01 September 2019 - 06:35 AM |
I'm sorry Tillie. The things in our heads are the hardest. Today is a day for me to stay home, rest, and prep for my week, because starting tomorrow, I am away from home every day for 5 days. 6 if I go to the dinner party. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 01 September 2019 - 05:28 AM |
Here it is 3:30am and I have been awake for a while now. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 31 August 2019 - 09:39 PM |
Hi Subclinical Happy you had family company and a dirty dog too. 😉 GREAT! that you have enough to fill a booth. Then after preparation for this sale is all over with you can start making Christmas themed items. WTG! with your new earlier to bed schedule routine. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 31 August 2019 - 09:27 PM |
CM, i'm glad you are ok. the doll show sounds like fun. I used to love to go to doll shows with my grandmother. Tillie, I too am angry about the roof. I think my answer to "what do you want me to say" would be "I want you to say the account numbers and passwords." Tatoulia, good to hear there is kitty progress. Hi Debbie. Thank you. Thank you to all of you. I have enough to fill the booth, but I will be doing a few particular fall pieces - like my pumpkin bowls. I am also doing some Christmas stuff, but that is more for the studio fair in November. The last two Saturday markets are the end of September and the end of October. Dsil texted dh this afternoon and invited himself and Dd over to cook us dinner, so that was fun. The dog, as usual, needed a bath, so I have a load of dog towels going in my washer. I stayed up late tonight and need to get to bed! | |
| Tillie | Posted: 31 August 2019 - 09:17 PM |
Good Evening Everyone Hi CriticalMass WOW! you sprang up so fast your feet were still sleeping there! Have a good little vacation having the place to yourself. Legal help would not help me with what I need help with. | |
| CriticalMass | Posted: 31 August 2019 - 08:01 PM |
Saw roommate off this a.m. Just yesterday I had recalled I wanted to go to the Kansas Doll Show today. So I did. This is different from the Wichita Doll Show which will be at the end of September. This one featured "reborn," highly realistic art dolls most of which look uncannily like real babies. I didn't know if I'd find that cute or creepy, but I was curious. They were generally cute. Some fantasy creatures like fairy dolls and dragons too. It's a high-end thing so the only money I spent was for admission but I just enjoyed learning about the process. It ties in loosely with the small amount of doll sculpting I've done and hope to do again, and my desire to make little aliens. Came back here intending to eat leftover chicken & biscuit then go to 5:30 Mass. Fell into a food coma sitting on the sofa, woke at 4:55, hurried to get up but my feet were still asleep. Pitched forward onto hands and knees, startling myself and the cats and jarring my bones. But got a bandaid on my knee and made it to church. I'm getting ready to have a snack and ibuprofen now. I may fade pretty early tonight. SubC, I will pray for both those young men, for the soul of the deceased and the healing of the one remaining, for the young lady, the families, and all of you. I don't know if you recall but I think I've shared here that I lost a cousin to a possessive ex-boyfriend. It was when she had just graduated salutatorian of her class, in '67. I was only 5. Two young lives that didn't need to end. Such a waste. Such pain in the family. Tatoulia, I wish you good progress with the coffee cups and kitty. I used to leave entire murky stinky sinkfuls of dishes for a terribly long time, and I am now converted to the "wash them as you use them" protocol. And it feels so good. Tillie, I'll pray for your situation too. Sorry Steven is stonewalling - whether it's a huge blind spot or spitefulness or what, you have a right to your property and means of support. Is there any kind of legal aid available? If the situation isn't too complicated - which maybe it is. I've been there with the foreclosure and Mom's estate and people would say call legal aid but I had and they didn't do probate and such. Anyway, I just wish the tide would turn for you. Well, I better go have my snack and medicine, and get started on kitty and bunny evening routines. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 31 August 2019 - 03:46 PM |
Hi Tatoulia (((((HUGS))))) to you and BF for stepping up. Awe, once new kitty comes around she will be an extra loving little companion for Mom. Taking your Mom to a clean orderly home is really the best motivation for her. Hope you got your groceries. Hi Debbie Well, I tried talking to him once again. anyways, I have the kitchen sink all scoured and shiney and will wash the few dishes at 2pm. | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 31 August 2019 - 02:30 PM |
Ps the moldy coffee mugs are never more than four days old because I'm taking the dishes with me. But I need to get this down to NO days old. | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 31 August 2019 - 02:29 PM |
Tillie, I'm sure your nerves are shot; you've been handled a great deal of worry upon worry upon worry, and it some of it could be solved with passwords and financial information. This is absolute madness. You've learned to live with a lot and this is a small thing to take a heap off of your shoulders. And I'm pretty incensed that the roof has not been fixed. I love the gun safety story. You know, it takes a community to raise a child. We work with our kids here to help fill in the gaps. I tell them I'm proud of them. Sometimes their parents are too frazzled. Some of these kids have grown up very nicely and some are struggling. And while we won't fall for the stuff their mother's will, we are loving and kind. I once, long ago, heard my BF tell some kid, I'm not like your mother. I can see you when you do bad things. So we fill in the gaps. Cm I'm pleased you stayed at the community seeing place and worked on your sewing! Cannot wait to see you post pictures of the clothes! Debbie Hello! What is going on? SubC the dinner party sounds like fun! I've been both busy and exhausted this week. New kitty still hides a lot but my mother is seeing her more and more. When I go over I pull the little one out of wherever she's sleeping and I hold her and pet her. She's so thin but she's a good little eater. Mom is seeing her a little more during the day. I swore I was only going to take care of myself today (which includes my closet) and so far I've visited BF (always charming) then I went to mom's with her clean comforter, I did some kitchen cleaning there (her place is just so filthy and I wish she'd let me throw some stuff out) and I brought her dishes back here to wash. She has coffee, then she puts silverware in the coffee cup, then it molds, then she adds water, then she spills the cups on the counters, etc. gives me the absolute willies to be there. I know some is age-related and vision-related and exhaustion-related so I don't say anything. But honest to God the amount of stuff in her apartment makes me buggy. But still there's less than there was before. We are going to my friend's house to do some baking at the end of September. Last time we went to her house (also was our first time being there), her place was so neat and so clean and so well organized that mom came home and allowed me to get rid of some things for her. We shall do this again. Ok I'm running a laundry (swore I wouldn't do any today) and I'm going to have to go groceries. Just for me. I'm out of everything and I can't even cook a meal for myself tonight. So I'll shop for me alone. Then I'll come back here, put on the tunes and turtle my way through the closet. | |
| Debbie | Posted: 31 August 2019 - 12:20 PM |
Dear Subc, I cannot express how sorry I was to read of your friends son! I don't know how people live through things that are so tragic. Being young can hurt so badly! And it is hard to see that things might improve when you are young and depressed. I don't know what to pray for even. Please take care of yourself and your friend the best way you can. We love you! | |
| Tillie | Posted: 31 August 2019 - 11:43 AM |
Good Morning Everybody Hi Subclinical YEA! for new socks and right before the weather changes to chilly! That party sounds nice, hoping that you do attend. After an incident here where I rendered 1st aid to a young boy accidently shot in the hand by his friend, the boys came to me to try to make it up to me. Hi CriticalMass Wonderful that you went to that sewing group! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUNNY!!! Yes, this new storm is one to be wary of. Hi Tatoulia According to "Dr. Google" I am having a nervous break down. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 31 August 2019 - 10:41 AM |
There were two kids involved. My friend's son is alive. The other boy is dead. They were close in age, but only my friend's son was old enough to buy the gun. They both intended to die. But watching someone die of a self-inflicted gunshot wound to the head shakes your resolve. So my friend's son called 911 instead of shooting himself. He is being charged with everything they can think of including murder and sex offenses. His mother is praying they will plea bargain down to assisted suicide and providing firearms to a minor. We have guns. Guns are tools. Dangerous tools. My 17 y.o. had to take driver's ed and practice under supervision for six months before getting her license. She had to take a test and have her vision checked before she got her learner's permit. But somehow a year later is old enough to buy a firearm with no waiting period and a background check that doesn't include juvenile records, training or references of any kind, or mental health information? We went to the market, which was fun and distracting. I talked to the woman in charge about having a booth next month. I also got a donut, a new pair of socks, a wooden flower centerpiece as a gift for ddil when we go to visit next month, soup for lunch, and some vegetables. | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 31 August 2019 - 09:17 AM |
SubC, We are your friends. We are here for you, through thick and thin. I am reeling from reading your post. I am absolutely reeling. This is a terrible event for so many people. No one is coming out unscathed. You need to support your friend by listening and reassuring him/her that this is not a reflection on parenting. This had a number of difficult things coming in at once. Being a teenager (the absolute worst), unrequited love (difficult to breathe), depression (can be a lifelong struggle), guns (which have their place, to be sure, but not as playthings-hunting, collecting, studying, protection, shooting ranges, etc the list goes on), and probably an argument or two. Your job now is to support your friend. Listen, hug, cry, tell the fishy story. From what I gather, the girl is alive but the other boy is dead? Terrible all around. I am so sorry. Drop by for tea, drop off a casserole. Just let the parents know you feel their pain and they are not alone. I am so sorry. I am just so sorry. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 31 August 2019 - 06:53 AM |
CM, good for you on going to the sewing! And staying! I might have panicked and left. Also good on the books. I did not go near the books at the rummage sale. I am not that strong yet. I hope things go smoothly for you cousins. Yesterday I put away laundry. I also called ❤️Dd. I want to talk to her about it, but she has a new job and I don't know her hours yet and she was at work. She sounded so happy! The new job is a really good change for her. And I just wanted to enjoy her being happy, so I didn't say anything. We just talked about the job for a few minutes and made plans for Monday. She also invited me to a small dinner party at her house next week. I am thinking about it. Dh says go. It would be a big deal for me, but it is a "safe" setting, and there will be a former coworker there whom I really like, and the party has a theme for discussion that I am very invested in, so small talk would not be a problem, and she doesn't expect me to get into a heated disagreement with anyone or she would not have invited me.... Also, you may remember the giant clean-out of her house that we did? I haven't been over for a while. I said "you have space for a dinner party?!" And she replied "I have space for a dinner party." She sounded very proud. I think I am pretty much cried out for now. My friend knows I am here. My new vacuum is here and I like it. Dh and I might go out to the last Saturday market and get donuts today. And I plan to get serious about my lesson plans. I need the first week locked down. | |
| CriticalMass | Posted: 31 August 2019 - 12:54 AM |
SubC, so sorry... it's okay to talk of painful things. We've all been through them in one form or the other. Young people can't see far enough into the future and their prefrontal cortexes aren't fully developed to make better decisions. There are no words adequate really, but sending my love. My week has been a miscellaneous one, in a good way. My friend who was my previous rommate had vacation and we went out for Chinese buffet lunch on Wednesday. It was good. One of the few ways I enjoy eating vegetables - beef broccoli, yum. Yesterday she and I went to the library sale. We didn't think we'd either of us buy much. It was a bag sale - and she bought most of the contents of the bag! I got two books that were just duplicates in better shape of books I had, so one in one out with those. I got a book by Pope Francis and a Bible guide, both modest in thickness. And a large book and a smaller, square fat book on glass painting. I have some glass paints; this should motivate me to get them out. Many of the designs would also work for quilting. I may trade the small fat book after I copy the designs I like. The big one has techniques and materials info and is a keeper. So I didn't do too badly. There was a big storm here last night with strong winds. Early on, a limb about 3" thick and 10 or more feet long fell right by the outside corner of my bedroom. My roommate heard the thud - I just heard the general chaos of the wind and hurried out to pull my van up in the driveway in case of street flooding. It looked like a hurricane outside. Luckily the branch didn't damage the corner of the roof and gutter where part of it stuck and we lifted it carefully away. I'll chop it up. Today I went to that sewing place - but I hadn't got round to texting my acquaintance from quilting, and she wasn't there. Awkward - but the ladies were nice and let me stay, so I got more of the Barbie clothes done. Only a bit more and I'll be ready to give them to my cousin's girl. Keeping a watch on Hurricane Dorian reports because of my other cousins in Florida, the ones with the son with cancer. He always has checkup scans in NYC in September, and there is concern over why he has a fractured vertebra. How nerve wracking - I hope they are still able to fly out at the right time. Tatoulia, how is new kitty girl? That's good if she seems to be getting past the pain. Spoil her with some rich food to build her up! I've been spayed, and it is draining - and I didn't just give birth to kittens beforehand. My bunny son is now 7 (estimated birthday). How time flies. He wasn't a year old when I adopted him, and so impish. He's more Joe Bunny Sixpack these days, easy to picture him in a Barcalounger with a remote. But always my boy! He and I and the others will have a carrot party. My roommate is going out of town, but she can give him a hug in the morning. Tillie, I'm being bad right now staying up too late on this tablet! And my sleep has been awful lately. So I better call it a night, or early morning technically. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 30 August 2019 - 11:02 PM |
oh well..... | |
| Tillie | Posted: 30 August 2019 - 04:28 PM |
Good Afternoon Everybody I got some things dusted. Scooter is bored and lonely. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 30 August 2019 - 11:24 AM |
Good Morning Everyone Hi Subclinical Of course your new schedule is all out of whack. We all "get" it. We are all here to support you through the hard times and to cheer for you during the good times. Please accept my condolences and (((((HUGS))))) Hi Tatoulia Have the hose set out slowly watering the trees today. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 30 August 2019 - 10:07 AM |
I did not mean to silence the conversation. That was off topic and hard to respond to. Just carry on. What are the bunnies doing? What's for lunch? Did anybody clear out a space or resist a purchase? I'm sorry, there is no delete button, but skip ahead. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 30 August 2019 - 04:52 AM |
8:30 pm. I didn't make the cheese yesterday. I worked on lesson plans and ran all my errands (I found another keurig thingy at the thrift shop!) And on the way home I stopped at a bug church rummage sale - in the old fashioned sense of rummage - boxes if stuff partly unpacked and roughly sorted, gather up what you want and go make a deal with the lady in charge. I have to confess I had a lot of fun searching for treasures. But I didn't find as many as I would have once. A less than full plastic grocery bag. And besides two more wire shelf stackers for my studio, everything was for my classroom. Cooked some chicken breasts to cut up and freeze for salads for dh. Put away laundry. Picked beans and tomatoes, and cooked dinner. Then I forgot to set up my coffee, and this morning I am not practicing my routine and I am tired. I got to bed late. My friend's son did something horrible. Because he was in love and suffers from depression and because we let people buy guns when we don't let them buy beer. Maybe if we let them buy beer instead he and his "friend" (the newspaper called them "friends") would have gotten drunk and slept it off, and they would both still be alive and no one would be going to jail. I have this endless loop in my head of the day I met him. He put his little felt fish in my coffee and gleefully cried out "fishy swim!" My brain keeps saying "how did this happen? Five minutes ago he was two years old and put a fish in my coffee." I tell my teenagers over and over, Romeo and Juliet is a tragedy, not a romance. | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 29 August 2019 - 08:32 PM |
SubC I am so proud of you! Your classroom is ready, you have a great plan for limiting computer time (AM or PM?) had your house is noticeably in much better shape! Tillie that is a lot of deep cleaning you did today. I bet your shower will feel great! I am just out of the shower myself. Stayed late at work then ambled around. I ran into a neighbor of my mom's and is just punched up groceries for mom so she offered to take up to her. I had picked up two coffee cakes for work tmr so I gave one to her to split with my mom. I'm tired. And a bit overwrought. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 29 August 2019 - 04:50 PM |
Good Afternoon Everyone Well... I would no longer be mortified if someone were to come by for a visit. 🙂 Looking forward to my evening shower. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 29 August 2019 - 11:10 AM |
Good Morning Everybody Hi Subclinical Of course your home is in better shape this time. WAY TO GO!!! for the classroom being all ready for first day!!! Have fun in the big town, good luck getting all you need and wishing you safe driving conditions. So far my only plan for today is to clean the bathroom. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 29 August 2019 - 05:40 AM |
Good morning! I am working on my school year structure - no computer after 8:30 unless essential for work, and today I am practicing my morning routine (which means this will be short.) Tillie, that was smart bout the heater. Tatoulia, I think it is good that you are raking time to spend with the new little one. I look forward to hearing about your closet. I did not drop anything off yesterday except trash. But, my classroom is completely ready even down to materials set out on tables. My first lesson will involve introduction of some of our new tools. My house is more in order than it was when school started last year. I swam yesterday and traffic was horrible and it took me two hours to get home. (Accident shut the highway down) Today I need to drive to the next big town away from the city and buy some goat medications. I'll go to the feed store, their grocery, and maybe a thrift store while i'm out. I discovered that the Keurig carousel is perfect for holding my little pots of glaze in my classroom. I need 2 more. Also lesson plans and more stuff around the house. My ten minutes is up! See you later. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 28 August 2019 - 11:37 PM |
Good Evening Everybody Hi Tatoulia We had a few tiny sprinkles at sundown with lots of lightning and thunder and blowing winds. WTG! for keeping up on housework. OK, so we are going back into that closet. I like that you are thinking of what you can do to make yourself happier. 🙂 It's been nice here too sleeping with the window open, the ceiling fan on and a nice blanket. | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 28 August 2019 - 09:09 PM |
Hello, hello. Busy day today. I was working from home but so busy. I made it up to mom's twice today. Working on socializing the little one. She is much less swollen and she seems to be feeling a bit better. I met friends for dinner tonight and I was grateful for that. Just a little bar that serves Italian food. Then I walked the malls. It's been raining here since about five but it's a tad humid. Sunday Monday and Tuesday felt like fall. I was sleeping with windows open, ceiling fan on and extra blanket. So nice. Cm that is an answered prayer! I love the idea of the friendship and sewing. Terrific news! Tillie you are so smart about disinfecting the heater. You have a marvelous mind. SubC, Tess and Debbie, a big hello! I have not been focused on my home but I've been keeping it up fairly well. I vacuumed the cat hair from the sofa two days ago before putting a clean cloth down. I need to make this weekend about my dining room closet. I just do. There's plenty I can do to make it more usable. And I'll be happier. I think I need to ask myself, how can I make myself happier over the Labor Day weekend. What changes in my house will increase my happiness? | |
| Tillie | Posted: 28 August 2019 - 01:48 PM |
Hello Swept and vacuumed this morning. Was trying to figure out how to disinfect the inside of that Edenpur space heater since I can't disassemble it. Finally decided that I could use an empty Febreze spray bottle since it sprays a mist. Since it is an electric appliance, spraying it should be alright because it will be all thoroughly dry long before I want to use it. It is important that I disinfect the heater and all the areas where nasty mouse may have traveled. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 28 August 2019 - 09:52 AM |
Good Morning Everybody WTG! Subclinical on your 40 hour challenge! Beautiful quiet cool morning here. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 28 August 2019 - 04:21 AM |
CM, The sewing thing sounds wonderful! Always a clear space to work, and you have to clean up when you are done. Maybe there will be another quilter and you can swap some fabrics - lighten your stash and get new stuff that you want to use in the moment. Great job on reducing the storage area! Keep on turtling on! A little at a time is all it takes. I have been doing a 40 hour challenge in my studio. Some days I only do ten minutes, but I am up to 31 hours and the studio looks a lot better! Most of the stuff I haven't gotten to yet is in one area that dh actually referred to as "the incredible shrinking pile" (I do still have some drawers and cupboards I haven't addressed) It's wonderful that you no longer feel pulled to shop! | |