I have always been a hoarder/clutterer/etc. Not so serious that you can't see from one side of my apartment to the other, but enough that I know it is a sanitation issue and that I don't want to even be in my own apartment anymore.

I was informed of a city inspection and worked my tail off, by myself, to try and address the issue. I know that I didn't get it all cleaned but I still thought I did well considering what I started with... however the inspector came by today and failed my apartment. I have until Monday to fix it, but I seem to have lost the will to do so. I'm at that "why bother? it's never going to be good enough" stage and I just don't have the motivation or the time to keep going.

I don't want friends to help because they all live too far away and I don't want them to know about this part of my life anyway.